stillborn

[blue_eyed_devil_06]

Hi my name is danielle I have never posted here before I'm looking for some help or just support I went into labor on may 5th 2012 I delivered a  stillborn beautiful baby boy named clayton keith johnson on may 6 2012 due to medical malpractice   from my water being broke too long I contracted a infection and so did clayton this has been the hardest thing we have ever went through the first choices parents have to make should NOT be where to bury your baby and what kind of casket I would just like to hear other stories from parents on how their coping

[Bitumz]

I went to the hospital on June 1st due to bleeding. I should have been 9w5d pregnant, but using u/s they determined that my baby stopped growing at 6w1d and had no heartbeat. From that day on, the bleeding just got worse and worse and the inevitable happened. So it all happened very recently. We just had a little burial for baby today and it helped a lot with my closure issues.

I was so exited to be a mama and to have it all taken away is a miserable feeling. I'm never going to understand why things like this happen. I'm so sorry for your predicament. It's just not fair.

[blue_eyed_devil_06]

He is always there for me to the best of his ability  but I carried him for 9 months felt every little wiggle and kick so I feel in love from day one just as you did. Then went through 36 hours of pure hell for nothing it seems. This to was our first child. If you don't mind me asking how long ago did this happen to you guys?

[blue_eyed_devil_06]

He is always there for me but I carried him for 9 months felt every little wiggle and kick so I feel in love from day one just as you did. Then went through 36 hours of pure hell for nothing it seems. This to was our first child. If you don't mind me asking how long ago did this happen to you guys?

[Bitumz]

I am so sorry you have to go through this. Everyone has been trying to comfort me by saying "maybe it just wasn't your time" but it does nothing but make the pain worse. No words can really help, only time an acceptance can. Your statement about losing your future is so true. That's exactly how I felt when I learned I was losing my baby. It's such a hopeless feeling. I'm also very sorry that it is putting strain on your relationship. I think it is very important for you guys to communicate your felings to one another. My boyfriend is suffering through this emotional time with me, but in a different way (men don't really seem to understand the connection a mother has to her child). But if it wasn't for him, I'd have no one to talk to and fully share my feelings with. I hope you and you fiance work through this hard time and help eachother through it. If so, I believe it will bring you closer in the end.

[blue_eyed_devil_06]

Thank you for commenting and I'm so sorry for your loss. I am taking legal action and the hospital and Dr are taking full responsibility. Its has only been about six weeks but it feels like everyday gets harder and the pain deepens. His room is still set up waiting on him to get home and its like a huge slap in the face everyday. I had to return to work just 4 weeks after this happened because I work for a small company that does not offer fmla. It is also putting a huge strain on me and my fiance. I'm loosing my hope and faith quick. When you loose a friend or family member your loosing part of your past when you loose a child your loosing your future.

[Bitumz]

I am so so sorry to hear about your loss. That is just heartbreaking. If I were in your position, I would definitely take some action against the facility that caused this!

I just recently went through an early missed miscarriage and it was one of the hardest and most emotionally draining situations I've ever been through. Even though he/she wasn't with us for very long, he/she was loved so much. It would have been my first baby and I felt my love growing for him/her every second he/she was growing in my tummy.
I passed baby naturally and found a beautiful jewelry box to lay him/her to rest in. My Poppy (and father figure) passed away recently as well, so I buried my baby next to him and have the pleasure of knowing my Poppy is holding baby in Heaven.

It's a pain I would never wish on anybody. The only thing that's healing me is time. Also, it's good to know we have our little Angels in Heaven watching over us, and that we will get to meet them some day.

Prayers and hugs to you. I am ALWAYS here if you need to talk.