I suffered a missed miscarriage last October and I just cant seem to move on. It was not a planned pregnancy, I have Lupus SLE and have already suffered 3 miscarriages and one of my sons was born at 29 weeks, so pregnancy is not my strong point! Every month I pray that by some miracle I am pregnant again, although my husband does not want any more children and we are not trying to conceive (I think i'm going mad). Every time I get my period I spend days in tears grieving for my baby I lost and the baby I'll never have. I just cant seem to move on from this. Does anyone else feel like this?? I expect most people on here are going to TTC again. I'm not ready to give up. It just feels so final. I cant talk to my husband about this, he just tells me to stop talking about it, he doesnt want another child, it would be like starting all over again when we have got to a point with our children when everything is so much easier (we have two boys aged 8 & 6).
I cant stand seeing my friends with babies, or mums in the playground with babies. Everyone seems to be pregnant. I just put on a brave face and coo and smile at the babies, but inside I feel empty.
I really dont know whether I will ever feel normal again.
Its very comforting reading everyones stories and hearing how people can get over their losses, I just hope I can get there soon before I loose my mind.