So very tired

[Jacksmom516]

Have you ever felt so tired you could cry?  I am at that point and just at my wits end.  Some how I still need to take care of animals, house, myself, work, go to physical therapy..........  I am only two weeks into 60 days straight of working and all I want to do is sit at home and cry -  I guess this hit me hard today as  I didn't get home last night till 9:45 and tonight won't be till 9:00!  Couple that will an invitation to go to friends house in two weeks that I had to turn down as I have to work and I just am done.  

Anyway - just needed to vent.  I am so used to being in charge -  having a tough time right now as I no longer am -  MS is!

[Lulu54]

you sound like a train-wreck ready to happen with that schedule.  I also understand it is out of your control.  Please don't hesitate to tell your friends 'no' if someone else can help out.  Start being selfish with your time if possible.  Here's hoping you can get some rest, and soon.

[Jacksmom516]

I work two jobs to make ends meet - before my dx did it to help pay bills due to pay cut at my full time job -  then I got roommates and hoped to quit but with dx came medical bills so I use the money for that.  My pt job only allows for one weekend a quarter off so I am working thru till Labor day.

Monday, Tuesday and Friday I have PT and Last night after PT drove to a friends house to take care of her cats since she is on vacation.  But Tuesday is always a 9:00 night pt is 6:45 because my boss at my full time job gives us grief for not scheduling appts first thing in the am or later in the pm.  

Basically it is work housework pt and try and be in bed by 11 to start all over at 5:30 the next am!

Long days for sure!

[Sidesteps]

Tracy, why are you working so many days in a row and so late?

[Jacksmom516]

Thanks Alex - You do put things into perspective!  I know this feeling will pass but sometimes It just gets so hard doing it all on my own sometimes I just want to say okay I give but I will not give MS that satisfaction - at least not yet!


Tracy

[HVAC]

Being tired is really crummy. I hate feeling warn out. I totally understand where you are coming from there is nothing worse than being warn out.

I was t the low point of my chemo yesterday I had had a 100 F for 4 days had been in bed and I felt I could not make it another moment. My husband came home and made hot dogs. They smelled so good I ate one and barfed it up. I just sometimes want my life back but yesterday it was not meant to be. Even my chemo nurse had no sympathy for me yesterday.

Today I woke up the fever broke and I took my dog for a walk for the first time in a week. A new day. I still have cancer and MS but I feel better. Go figure.

Alex