I JOINED THIS FORUM ABOUT 2 MONTHS AGO. I AM IN THE RANKS OF MANY OF YOU WHO ARE IN LIMBO LAND. IT’S A HARD PLACE TO BE, KNOWING THAT ONE IS NOT A HYPOCHONDRIAC AND HAVING TO DEAL WITH SYMPTOMS THAT COME AND GO, YET HAVE A SIGNIFICANT IMPACT ON ONE’S BODY AND LIFE.
IT ALL TAKES A TREMENDOUS PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL AND FINANCIAL TOLL. FIRST, WE ARE CONCERNED ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON WITH OUR BODIES AND WHY CAN’T DOCTORS FIGURE IT OUT? FOR SOME OF US, THE SYMPTOMS ARE NOT ONLY DEBILITATING, BUT CAN LEAD TO DEPRESSION, ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS. FAMILY MEMBERS AND COWORKERS NOTICE CHANGES IN US. WE CAN’T ALWAYS DO THE THINGS WE WANT TO DO, ESPECIALLY WHEN WE GET HIT WITH THOSE BAD SPELLS.
WE WORRY ABOUT BEING ABLE TO HOLD ONTO OUR JOBS WHEN WE HAVE TO CALL IN SICK OR HAVE TOO MANY DOCTORS’ APPOINTMENTS. AND THOSE DOCTORS’ APPOINTMENTS AND TESTS HAVE US SITTING ON PINS AND NEEDLES, HOPING THAT THIS TIME; WE’RE IN THE HANDS OF COMPETENT PROFESSIONALS WHO WILL FINALLY TELL US WHAT IS GOING ON WITH OUR BODIES SO THAT WE CAN COME TO TERMS WITH A DIAGNOSIS AND MENTALLY PREPARE OURSELVES TO MOVE ON WITH LIFE.
THIS FORUM HAS BEEN VERY HELPFUL TO ME IN SO MANY WAYS. IT HAS BEEN EDUCATIONAL AND A GREAT SOURCE OF SUPPORT, SEEING OTHERS TRYING TO GRAPPLE WITH A SIMILAR SITUATION. MANY OF MY SYMPTOMS ARE SUGGESTIVE OF MS AND THE LESIONS ON MY BRAIN ARE NOT TYPICAL FOR SOMEONE OF MY AGE. WHILE I AM KEEPING AN OPEN MIND IN TERMS OF A DIFFERENTIAL DIAGNOSIS, THIS FORUM HAS THE MOST INFORMATION IN TERMS OF BOTH SYMPTOMS, TESTS AND DIAGNOSIS.
MY JOURNEY STARTED ALMOST 8 YEARS AGO WITH WHAT I LIKE TO CALL THE “UNBEARABLE LIGHTNESS OF BEING”, WHICH IS LIGHTHEADEDNESS, FEELING DIZZY, BRAIN FOG AND HAVING PROBLEMS WITH VISION. I WAS TRYING TO MAKE A 60 MILE DRIVE HOME ON THE HIGHWAY AND IT TOOK ME AN HOUR TO DRIVE MAYBE 15 MILES. I THEN CALLED FAMILY TO DRIVE ME HOME. I WAS AFRAID OF GETTING INTO AN ACCIDENT AND KILLING OTHERS AND/OR MYSELF.
LESS THAN A MONTH LATER THIS RECURRED WITH NEW SYMPTOMS APPEARED. IS IT A NORMAL PART OF AGING OR SOMETHING ELSE? HOW DOES ONE KNOW WHETHER OR NOT TO CALL A DOCTOR? I STILL LIVE WITH THIS TODAY.
THAT’S ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I SHOULD HAVE ASKED THE NEW NEURO I SAW THIS WEEK. I’VE HAD A RATHER COMPREHENSIVE PANEL OF BLOOD TESTS ORDERED. ON TUESDAY, I’M HAVING AN LP (THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW SERUM NEEDS TO BE INCLUDED) WITH THREE SPECIFIC TESTS ORDERED. THE WEEK AFTER COMES AN MRI OF BOTH MY C AND T SPINE. ALSO A VISIT WITH THE EYE DOCTOR AND A FOLLOW UP APPOINTMENT WITH THE NEURO AT THE END OF THE MONTH. I’M DETERMINED TO SEE IT THROUGH THIS TIME, BECAUSE WHAT IS GOING ON IS NOT NORMAL.
SO TO ALL MY COMPATRIOTS IN LIMBO LAND, STAY STRONG IN SPIRIT AND BE YOUR OWN BEST ADVOCATE. FOR ALL OF US, I HOPE THAT WE FIND OUR ANSWERS SOON, WHATEVER THEY MIGHT BE, SO THAT WE CAN ACCEPT THE CHANGES IN OUR BODIES AND MOVE ON WITH OUR LIVES.
AUDREY