Hi Everyone--
Well, no names, but I wasn't blown off, either.
The MS Specialist scheduled another brain MRI for mid- September, which will be exactly 6 months from my last brain MRI. She wants it on the same 3T machine with same slice/location/etc in order to check for new lesions. (She doesn't trust signs of progression when done on different Tesla strengths, or even for that matter different machines with the same tesla).
She is also of the opinion that even if it doesn't show up early on, there should be "evidence of inflammation" in the CSF so if there are new lesions, she wants to repeat the LP.
I left there feeling fine, but for some reason still had a good cry when I got home. I think I had to release the tension. It's a pretty rotten feeling, being the neuro patient giving your history, trying to explain/describe things which are no longer present, but which were all too real and crappy a few weeks or a few months ago. Also, it probably doesn't help feeling so self-conscious and aware of being observed at every moment---(is the patient well-spoken? educated? a reliable source? mentally stable?)--- too much pressure!
Not to mention, the striking difference in power position. As I put it to my husband, I'd a million times over rather be the person getting paid a lot of money to solve the fascinating problem. Instead I am the one with the crappy symptoms trying to get fitted onto the packed schedule-- good times!
Thanks for listening :)
Sadie