Yo bro I'm also 17 and suffer from HOCD. I love girls always have always will but that doubt always kills me. I'm doing better with it and trying to stay positive but I would like to know your story of how u beat it and maintain it. That would help a lot
Also dude ur not a Pedophile you're 17 years old and you noticed a girl is attractive. Think about it in 4 years when you're 21 and she's 17 or when you're 22 and she's 18 it's not gonna make a difference. My mom was 14 and my dad was 17 when they went out and now they r married. I'm not saying go and ask her out but listen.... we're all dudes and notice attractive girls. No big deal here man just relax. I've had some thoughts like that too. It happens stay chill bro.
Thanks bro that helps me bit. That HOCD is the worst thing in the world but trust me it will get better. Dont lose hope! I say it all the time when I get these thoughts. Im going therapy at the moment and I recommend it to you.
I know it's scary but I dont think that your parents will just tell you 'Oh, you are gay.' Just tell that these thoughts bring anxiety and you need help. But do not just go to random psychiatrist, go psychiatrist who are specialist with these things.
I know I have those same feelings now but they come from 12-13 year-old girls. I never believed that I would develop this thing into my head. But good luck with your treatment!