I have HOCD as well as other themes.... I have been avoiding relationships all my life since I was 16 I'm now 33.... I recently visited a strip club and I feel totally dirty for doing so but at the same time I've had zero female interaction for about 8 or 9 years.... how do I get over feelings of guilt and the worry that I have an std even though I was fully clothed and it doesn't spread that way I had dry sex and the stripper gave me a little blowjob over my pants