Hi everyone I haven't been here in awhile. I have Hocd, at least I think I do, and I have been doing really well with it for the past year, but I just had a spike. It started a couple days ago while I was watching a video. There was a sexual scene and it was arousing, but I felt like the girl's reactions in the scene were making me more aroused than the boy's and that gave me anxiety cause than I thought that meant I was gay. Then I had the thought if I'm gay what will my family think will they hate me and that gave me anxiety. Then the anxiety over that thought gave me more anxiety because I read that only gay people have thoughts about rejection not people with HOCD. So I thought that meant I must be gay. I'm really depressed because I've been doing so well! I know I shouldn't look for reassurance but I need help getting over this bump on the road so that I can get back on track. Thank you!