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genaral hocd questions
As.in my previous post I told.how I have hocd . anyways I'll make it brief I looked at image's of dudes doing it. Quiet extreme images really anyway I was touching.myself try to get hard. To test .it was almost like.my @#$%& wasnt there like.ny body knew I.was trying to.force something . Although my ocd will.say well.you looked.and twist it to say you was hard.and you was.looking so.you must be. You just didn't.reallize atm I feel good and so.happy plus. Exposer to fear .
Sorry about the caps damm phone I should also add I moved about sixty miles from my parents and had real problems with homesickness. And fear of them.falling ill.or dying when.I not there while working aboit this. I'm missing.Out on them.while there here if this makes sence . And also. My ocd .telling me all this and that what it forgot to mention that I I did have a man kiss me. Like proper snog me did I enjoy it No did it excite me NO do I want it again NO. When I thoyht of this I was like oh yeah forgot that you **** it did kinda kill it a bit so when.it.kicks in I'm gonna be like been there did it didn't like it no
Now F OFF YOU ANNOYING LITTLE BUG YOU HAVE YOU.HOLD NO POWER
Now F OFF YOU ANNOYING LITTLE BUG YOU HAVE YOU.HOLD NO POWER
But as ive read testing can lead to you getting an reaction . Then your like.it moved I'm gay im gay !!! When your not its a tricky thing . I know how you feel at the moment I trying to just go yup that's right . Although again this is hard to do with out panicking nd going off the deep end ..i don't find gay porn appealing nor exciting how about this. If Im kissing. My gf while.say top gear is on and I get aroused does that mean Jeremy Clarkson turns .me on ?? ......well no ( I have examined all this is it this is it this ?? And round round it goes .. I would seek therapy .. most of the time the root if this had nothing to do with sexuality. We'll so I've read . Since I was 12 yo I've been in 3 major car accident. ny gf got raped. I was attacked in my car. And I wawas nearly car jacked this has made me overly anxious about everything. And I pick up.anything and obsess bout them even.my relationship .. ALSO GAY PEOLE DON'T FEAR BEING GAY THEY LIKE IT. FANTASIZE ABOUT THEY
WORRY ABOUT WHAT OTHERS THINK ALTHOUGH I HEARD THIS AND WORRIED ABOUT IT IT SOON WENT BACK TO THE ORIGNAL THOUGHT AND OBSESSION I JISY SPENT HIURS TALKING TO MY GF ABOUT THIS AND I FELT LOADS BETTER. BUT EVEN NOW IT'S STILL THO NOT AS INTENSE BUT STILL THERE .. I'm just.trying to say yeah whatever
WORRY ABOUT WHAT OTHERS THINK ALTHOUGH I HEARD THIS AND WORRIED ABOUT IT IT SOON WENT BACK TO THE ORIGNAL THOUGHT AND OBSESSION I JISY SPENT HIURS TALKING TO MY GF ABOUT THIS AND I FELT LOADS BETTER. BUT EVEN NOW IT'S STILL THO NOT AS INTENSE BUT STILL THERE .. I'm just.trying to say yeah whatever
i am really scared i tried whatever but then it comes back again and again and again and unless i test it i feel completely gay and that i uhave tipped over the edge.
What you said made sense I read purple elephant . And thought of one .. I'm gonna be seeing a cbt therapist today sometimes I try the whatever and it works ,but the it can come back with so.you accept it your And the. The cycle goes on . I mist say after a few hours it came back stronger like I've it read.it.does to.some people. I've had this kinda thing when.I was. In my late teens but was. Able to go no that's not ne and move on and just keep going. All I ever wanted was to met a girl .. I fantasize about women. Never about men . Like you say it is one big mind game Thankyoy.for your advice ..
OCD is one big mind game we play on ourselves. We say black and our mind says white. It is like being told to not think of a purple elephant and that is the first thing we think about.
HOCD is tricky. People with OCD are usually looking for some sort of closure. We like to be in control and when we are not, it drive us crazy. So you have to ask yourself, do you see yourself in a relationship with another guy? If the answer is an emphatic no, then you cannot possibly be gay. That should be enough for you. If you go any further with this testing stuff you have done, you are really just keeping the thought alive. What you need to learn is to let it pass over you. Don't fear the thought because it isn't real.
You need to learn cognitive behavioral therapy and that is usually taught by a psychologist. It is also good to practice self-coaching whereby you say to yourself "ENOUGH" "MOVE ON" "WHATEVER". I use whatever. I think the thought, I say "whatever" thereby giving it no credit and then I move on. If it comes back, I do the same thing. I practice controlled breathing as well. There is a lot you can learn to help yourself but you need a professional to do it right. You need someone to tell you that testing is bad and why.
HOCD is tricky. People with OCD are usually looking for some sort of closure. We like to be in control and when we are not, it drive us crazy. So you have to ask yourself, do you see yourself in a relationship with another guy? If the answer is an emphatic no, then you cannot possibly be gay. That should be enough for you. If you go any further with this testing stuff you have done, you are really just keeping the thought alive. What you need to learn is to let it pass over you. Don't fear the thought because it isn't real.
You need to learn cognitive behavioral therapy and that is usually taught by a psychologist. It is also good to practice self-coaching whereby you say to yourself "ENOUGH" "MOVE ON" "WHATEVER". I use whatever. I think the thought, I say "whatever" thereby giving it no credit and then I move on. If it comes back, I do the same thing. I practice controlled breathing as well. There is a lot you can learn to help yourself but you need a professional to do it right. You need someone to tell you that testing is bad and why.
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