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Worry about the HIV needles
Hi, sorry to bother you again! I took one girl to my home last Wednesday, she provided the massage service to me.Both of us are in clothes and I touched her breast and butt,finally she masturbated for me and I reached the orgasm .Then I sent her back by car.
The unlucky thing is that I caught a cold next day, and I thought I was infected by her.Nobody else I had touched the day before and she was in the cold when she came to my home. This triggered my irrational thoughts, I can't help thinking she hided some dirty needles or syringe in her pocket, and stuck me during the massage with the dirty needles, so I began to worry about the HIV infection from the "possible needle stick".
However, I really can't feel any pain during the massage if she stuck me with the needle，and I can't find any blood left in my underwear. I just doubt, only doubt if the girl had ever stuck me. I don't have any evidence or did feel she had stuck me.I called her and ask for such question, she was unhappy to that and told me she only carried her mobile phone and keys with her when she came to my home, nothing else, let along the needles or Syringe.But I still can't trust her much.
Furthermore, the girl had told me where she is working and what's her job. So I wnet to look for her next day.It is true, she works in a shop as a Clark, the address and her job are true as what she told me.
so, why I keep worrying about the "syringe needle stick" from her and very scared for the HIV infection? Is it possible for me can't feel any pain if she really had stuck me?
The unlucky thing is that I caught a cold next day, and I thought I was infected by her.Nobody else I had touched the day before and she was in the cold when she came to my home. This triggered my irrational thoughts, I can't help thinking she hided some dirty needles or syringe in her pocket, and stuck me during the massage with the dirty needles, so I began to worry about the HIV infection from the "possible needle stick".
However, I really can't feel any pain during the massage if she stuck me with the needle，and I can't find any blood left in my underwear. I just doubt, only doubt if the girl had ever stuck me. I don't have any evidence or did feel she had stuck me.I called her and ask for such question, she was unhappy to that and told me she only carried her mobile phone and keys with her when she came to my home, nothing else, let along the needles or Syringe.But I still can't trust her much.
Furthermore, the girl had told me where she is working and what's her job. So I wnet to look for her next day.It is true, she works in a shop as a Clark, the address and her job are true as what she told me.
so, why I keep worrying about the "syringe needle stick" from her and very scared for the HIV infection? Is it possible for me can't feel any pain if she really had stuck me?
Dude i can feel your pain.Its simply becoz of this OCD your thinking this way.I had a similar incident like yours.I also keep on worrying about this incident.In fact we both dont know whether the incident has happened or not.But still we are worrying.Its jus related to OCD and anxeity.The more you think about that the more your going to get afraid.Your are not alone...try to move on..Read my below thread which is quite similar to your experience and give your suggentions.
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Obsessive-Compulsive-Disorder-OCD-/OCD-about-hiv-syringe-prickhelp-megoing-crazy/show/2133516
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Obsessive-Compulsive-Disorder-OCD-/OCD-about-hiv-syringe-prickhelp-megoing-crazy/show/2133516
Thanks JGF, yeah, I had ever taken anti-anxiety medicine for years. But I don't think the medicine is good for me, strong side effects, not works very well for me.
I found myself fallen into the anxiety of fearing HIV all day & all night, my life should not be like this. I also found my ability for judgement is decreasing.
I found myself fallen into the anxiety of fearing HIV all day & all night, my life should not be like this. I also found my ability for judgement is decreasing.
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