I'm doubting I have OCD now?

[spoopernatural]

Okay so I made a post recently (like 3 days ago actually...by the way, to the people who left comments on it thank you so much!!! I would respond but I'm so shy...but thank you!). I was so convinced it was OCD but now I'm doubting it. I mentioned it to my cousin and she just said "yeah I worry a lot too" and I asked her what about and she said things like getting tornados and storms or whatever. I asked her if she checked behind the shower curtains like I do (I fear there's a monster or something behind them so I check every single time I go in the bathroom and sometimes even at other people's houses) and she said yes and she even sometimes opens her bedroom door really slowly in case there's something in there. So then for whatever reason that made me think what if all of my worrying is just normal worrying? What if this isn't OCD or HOCD? And then for whatever reason I concluded that if it's not HOCD that must mean I'm really gay. But I don't understand! That wouldn't change anything right? I'd still just be worrying a lot about something and that's sorta weird. But then again maybe the checking behind the curtains is a normal thing? Or maybe it's different for her? And worrying about storms and tornados is fairly common right? Besides we had one last year so I can totally see why she'd worry about it. I don't know...if I do have OCD could it be that that's making me doubt that's what it is? I just feel like what if this isn't OCD and I just overthink too much and it's not a mental disorder at all and I'm just me. But then again worrying that you have or will have schizophrenia when there's really no reason you should, being pregnant while on your period, fearing you'll become a pedophile, and so many other things even against ALL evidence that it isn't true is in no way normal. I think another think that makes me doubt it is that sometimes I'll have these fairly long periods of time in which no thoughts will bother me at all. But when they do bother me, they could go on for months. Other obsessive thoughts might not even last as long and could just be for like three days at the minimum while others could be five months. When these thoughts happen it's always nonstop for the entire day, everyday. But is it really OCD? Am I just overthinking this? Before my cousin ever said "I think about things for a while too" I was so sure it was OCD but now I'm starting to think "No this is just you thinking too much. You don't have a disorder." Is this something sufferers of OCD have? Or is it just me...?

[Rywol]

Like I said the first time, this is all ocd. Ocd tries to do whatever it can to make you think things you're not. The tactic I told you about works if you try it through time.

[bringmejoy]

That's okay! It's very confusing always causing doubt, good luck to you too.

[spoopernatural]

You're probably right, I've actually been told before by people with ocd that this is ocd many times before. It's just so confusing! But it's probably just the ocd making me confuse myself. Thank you for answering both of my questions by the way and good luck with your ocd I know it can be a b**** to deal with...

[bringmejoy]

wow we are going through very similar things right now! I have had that pregnancy fear before - even when i got my period i still thought i could be pregnant, even thought i felt a kick once how silly is that? the point is, ocd can do a very good job of making things up to fit what its trying to tell you. just the same way its convincing you there's a monster behind the curtain, its convincing you that you are gay. and yes intrusive thoughts are normal and do happen for everyone, but the difference between a normal mind and an ocd mind is that the obsession comes with them and we find it harder to let go than others. from what you're saying, this is ocd.