OCD or schizo

[eltoro77]

Hi guys,

Am having difficulty with my problem maybe you can help enlighten me with my prob.

Had 3 beers last nyt, went back to my room with a bar girl. We had fooled around a little. She insisted to have sex, I don't want. She give me oral and sneak wore me a condom. I told her that am not into sex and rolled her over. She went on top of me and tried to have sex. As she hold my penis I lost the condom. And ended that nyt kinda disappointed.

Here's what troubling me...I know we had not have sex. But something is telling me  had that perhaps I left out some details.

I remember what happened that night from what she was wearing, what we did but can't seem to remember if there was even a slight penetration. Now I am so scared why this important scenario I can't recall. I tried to think very hard what really took place and can't truly accept it.

I am worried that maybe I have s schitzo that is why I can't recall that event. Or it really didn't happen that is why I can't recall.

Can anybody relate to this? Any suggestion or comment is a great help. Tnx

[more0then0a0virus]

        I can relate to you in not remembering some parts of sex. I couldn`t remember if some guy ejaculated in me, so I talked to him after(maybe you should do that) and he said he don`t remember either, And I just forgot about it, and I don`t care.
       But if you are so concerned all the time, and has difficulty concentrating on anything else, I guess it might be a sing of OCD. Search more symptoms and see if you can relate to them. But it doesn`t have to be.
       I guess when you are horny or concentrating on rejecting, it`s possible not to pay attention too much on everything, and then not recall everything, I think you should relax a bit.  
        The best advise I have for you is to visit an expert, psychiatrist. Only he can tell you whether you have or don`t have problem.
        Best wishes...

[eltoro77]

Good point mayb I was to busy rejecting her, that I didnt put much attention to everything that had happened. I did ask her again if I penetrated her. she said "no" we didn't have sex because I was pushing her away. She even added that not a small part of my penis entered her. But somehow I am not sure if could rely on her answer. I believe at that time she had too much to drink.

I keep putting in my mind that to my knowledge there was no penetration. And she did confirm that nothing happens yet I still am not convince and it's driving me crazy.

[more0then0a0virus]

       Maybe she did drink and it`s normal not to believe in what drunk person has said. but, on the other hand, i think this should`t bother you so much.
      this situation is just a segment of your whole story and the most of us here arn`t experts, so the best thing you can do is to visit psychiatrist. Your behavior might be OCD, or some anxiety disorder, or something else. But it`s important that you solve it because it will bother you, and you live only once so don`t let this situation to ruin beauty of your day.