I have had these recurring worries about catching HIV. My boyfriend recently shared a pipe with someone that may have HIV and my boyfriend had chapped lips at the time. It worries me so much. I can't eat, or sleep. I keep wondering, what if there was blood on the pipe my boyfriend didn't see, and it went in through his chapped lips. I need some reassurance, and I can't seem to find it. I keep obsessing over getting tested in 3 months. I just got tested last month...twice. I fear getting tested, and I don't want to, but I know in order for me to feel better I have to. I had a deja vu of me having HIV and it worried me, because I had a similar deja vu when getting tested for hsv-1. In the deja vu, I knew I was positive for HSV-1, and I was. I had the same deja vu, but with having HIV. Am I driving myself crazy? Can someone help?