HOCD?

[kls2228]

I'm 15 years old, and as far as I'm concerned, I've been straight my whole life.  I've always been attracted to girls.  About three months ago, I started to get homosexuality fears.  This is the starting point of where my life was turned upside-down.  I had fears of becoming homosexual, repeating unwanted/uncontrollable sexual images in my head (mental self checking), lowered sex drive, constant critiquing in my mind (the way I looked, talked, walked, etc.), huge amounts of anxiety, and much more.  I found something called HOCD (Homosexuality Obsession Compulsion Disorder) online.  There were forums i found and they're stories were identical to mine.  I went to a psychologist, who hasn't diagnosed me yet, and I'm on various medications prescribed by my psychiatrist, including Saphrin.  The thoughts all started to fade away until a couple days ago.  The thoughts are back, I don't know how to stop them.  It's like I'm trying to be convinced I'm gay, when I know I'm really not.  This is causing a tremendous amount of anxiety.  I know I'm not gay, but I can't shake these thoughts off.  Is HOCD real?  Does it sound like I have a mental disorder similar to OCD?    

[Sweetheartgirl]

Can u tell me how u feeling now just noticed u posted that years ago

[Sweetheartgirl]

I'm going through the same thing but when I read your story I can actually tell you have hocd but when I read mine it feels like I'm really gay I've been diagnosed with hocd so I'm 100% u have it too don't worry you'll be fine your not gay you never will be I believe in you !

[chingchong133]

I'm going the exact same thing with the thoughts it really depresses me. If you could help me and Give me some reassurance that would be great. Sometimes I surrender and think maybe I am gay but deep down I know I'm not I also suffered from anxiety a few years back about my health . Please help me and tell me how I can treat this I'm 14 year old male

[djok]

hey there,
              first of all let me start with this, your straight. i mean you say what you are attracted to and which is girls and not boys. i mean sexual images and other concerns in your head are all fine, they only mean something or maybe mean that you are gay if you carry them out, some people enjoy them and still remain straight as it is part of growing up or it is new to them. however they are not gay they are straight. i have been through similar stuff and i hated all these gay thoughts and never carried them out, im attracted to girls only and im living my life as straight, i think your fine and just anxious and would stop worrying as much. you'll be alright.