ocd

[scaredtodeath17]

do you know what it feels like to feel your world crashing to peices right before your eyes. feeling helpless, afraid. all those daydreams and hopes of the future suddenly like an unimaginable fairytale, something that reality just wont permit. But its not reality thats scaring you, and deep down you know its not true. but the thoughts and the fears just follow you like a stubborn festering shadow threatening who you are and who you've always wanted to be. on the surface and even deeper your mind stands like a hazy black cloud between your irrational fear and blatant reality. when you start to believe your imagination you know you've taken it too far, that you have to get out before the choice is no longer your's to make. Before your choices start to reflect your fears instead of you. who you want to be is stronger than what you're afraid of or even who you are now. it doesn't have to be like this. it's not gonna be like this...1...2...3..go!!!

[scaredtodeath17]

i spoke to one... its hocd that i know, its justso darn annoying!!! ahhhhhh

[ILADVOCATE]

Such feelings are known as depersonalization or derealization meaning apart from reality. They can come from psychotic disorders but they can also be a part of anxiety disorder as well. It all depends what else is going on. The feelings are scary but what's going on is very treatable but only a psychiatrist can make a diagnosis so it would be best to speak to one and explain.