Cacophobia

[Nuttersaurus88]

This is going to sound crazy but any feedback would be greatly appreciated. For a while now I've had an intense fear of being ugly. I know that I'm not ugly but just the thought of being ugly or being associated with anything ugly scares the hell out of me. For example, I have a huge fear about dating an ugly woman which constantly plagues me. Another feeling I get is when I see ugly men I constantly put myself in their shoes and think how would I get an attractive girlfreind if I looked like that. It transcends to other areas also. I want to be a musician and it's something I really want to focus on but I keep thinking that if I was ugly I wouldn't be able to be a successfull musician.

The problem is, as a result, I can't stop talking to myself. I'm constantly having to convince myself I'm not ugly and constantly going over different scenarios in my mind. I don't think this is normal, I think I must be an absolute schizo.

Eventhough I'm not ugly just the thoughts keep plagueing me and terrorise me. I've been to the doctor, although I was too embarassed to explain the extent of the issue and semi-explained it. I said I was depressed and anxios because of it and have been prescribed anti-depressants. Been taking them for little over a week now, the anxiety has eased but the thoughts haven't.

I was recommended to seek councilling but I just don't know if I have the nerve to talk about something like this with a councillor. It's extremely embarassing but on the other hand it's ruining my life. I have an appointment next week but I'm so embarassed and scared about raising these issues with the councillor.

P.S I know this is probally the most random thing you've come across, your probs thinking wtf lol

[raven381]

hi, dont worry you are not the only one who is struggling with these unreal and unwanted and intrusive thoughts, your thoughts are still normal to an extent , unlike me, i get thoughts sometimes that im not human , and get stuck into my head, my head plays tricks on me, its very difficult to handle , i also have sometimes HIV OCD and once in the past i got the Being Gay OCD , i have been living with OCD for 9 years now, on and off Anti-Dep, my life becomes miserable sometimes , but what can i do, i must continue living , maybe one day i will wake up cured or maybe one day Doctors will come to a cure,

i just wanted to support you ,

you can check my last post or question that i have posted , i wrote my whole story in details if you wana take an idea or share with me your thoughts

[VintageChevy]

Just message me on this site haha

[VintageChevy]

Struggled with Cacophobia in the recent past, and fortunately no longer experience it. Relate to EVERYTHING you stated. Wanted to share my story with you and hopefully vice-versa. My name is Branden by the way, and would appreciate any response. Email me at: branden.***@****
Take it easy.

[drfeelgood89]

Hey that's great i Thought i was the only one with these thoughts..but that's normal, just because we're not worrying ourselves with bugs or diseases wich are the common or prototype subjects of obsessive compulsive disorder that does not mean obsessing with uglyness is impossible...OCD TRICKS OUR MIND and takes form of any subject that is highly valued for us...for example sexuality (then you'll have a fear of becoming gay), etc...
Hope this helped and antidepressants such as SNRI's and behavioural cognitive therapy.
Good luck