I really feel bad for you knowing you will be working in so much pain .I know how bad that can be .I hope everything goes great for you when you see the new Dr .Maybe this horrible time you have been having will be over and you can get your quality of life back.You are right about me going for my disability .The more I consider and think about it I realize thats my only option.Heck I can't even keep my home up anymore .I have really let things go .I do what I can mainly the things that bother me the most (dirty bathroom , dishes, laundry) .If I can keep those up I am doing good . I will keep you in my prayers Jamie .You must believe things will get better .I know it's hard sometimes but try to think positive.Thanks and take care Melissa
lol Melissa your fine. I agree you really need to check into disability, you cant get attacked again!! Your husband is right on this one. Plus your dr is even asking you about it and she will do the papers so I say GO FOR IT!! I know it really hurts knowing you can't work anymore but you have to put you first. I have been on medical leave 2 times now and I hated to go on it but I had no choice, it was either call off cause I was in to much pain and lose my job or go on medical leave so I picked medical leave. I am not sure if I will be able to work this weekend, I was in so much pain last time I worked and I was on med then, this time I won't be so I am very scared.
Jamie
I have really been having a hard time deciding what to do whether to quit doing the respite .I really don't think I could handle another attack though.This boy is larger than I am and very strong .I could not get away from him and when I did I left a chunk of me behind.He had such a grip on me.I ended up with a baseball sized place on my back and I wrenched my neck getting away from him .He is only a child but I was afraid of him .I have worked with mentally challenged people for over 15 yrs but I have never been attacked this way.I also was not forwarned by the mom that this kind of behavior was possible or the best way to handle his meltdowns . If I was being honest with myself I know I can't do this.I can't put myself in harm's way with my condition .I guess I will have to check into getting disability .My Pm once asked me if I was going on disability that she would sign the papers for me. I can't work anymore . I have tried for the last couple of months but that has just been a few hours a week .I am going to continue to stay in touch with the people I cared for.They are family to me .I will never lose interest in their lives and how they are doing .Thank you Jamie ! I feel like I hijacked your thread ! LOL! Melissa
It would be so hard to leave the people you take care of. But I do understand where your husband is coming from, he don't want you hurt again. Even tho you think you can get to this boy there is also a chance he can hurt you again, worse then last time. So I would just let it go. Keep visiting the people you did take care of.
There is nothing wrong with trying to get disability, you really need to look into it since you can't work. I know it is a eye opener but it is the best thing to do.
My mother inlaw is quiting work next month and she only cares for one guy, she goes to his house 3 days a week to care for him. She is going to really miss him and I know she will be over to check on him all the time. She has cared for him for like 3 years.
Hang in there
Jamie