I think we might have a pathogen that is destroying 5-HT2A receptors.
I suspect this because I found out LSD and psilocybin only work like 10% for me, there are almost zero visual effects and it only has an effect of about 15 minutes after several hours where you have some insight from the two brain sides (logic & intuition) working together simultaneously.
When this happens there is also some kind of Serotonin flood that seems to unlock all the emotions that you had blocked over years.
Because these receptors also react to your own Serotonin this is probably the reason why I feel so bland and free of emotion.
Surprisingly alcohol can totally change me from hating everybody to want to hug everybody. This is because alcohol acts on other receptors (5-HT3) which are still working. Unfortunately I don't tolerate it very well.
Another thing that makes me different to normal people is my super high urine Serotonin. It's about 5 times as high as it is supposed to be.
I noticed that people that I probably infected suddenly get grumpy and depressed.
I have been like this my whole life so I guess I'm infected since early childhood.
This physical deficiency of Serotonin could lead to a spiritual manifestation in a blocked throat chakra.
Do you also sometimes feel people look at you as you are an alien? That's because they cannot sense any emotion or aura from you which makes them suspicious like you are some form of an android. ^^
Do you also feel your smile is kind of sardonic?
If you all could do these tests (urine Serotonin and trying LSD) and it shows it is same for all of us (high 5-HT and resistance to psychedelics) that would be a big breakthrough.
I forgot to tell why this pathogen is blocking Serotonin, it is a neurotransmitter which is also important for immunity, so by destroying or blocking the 5-HT2A receptors it can be safe from the immune system.