my little one lost the battle

[msacha]

To those of you who have followed my strange story... Well, yesterday I confirmed what I suspected since Monday, my little one lost his brave battle.  This pregnancy has definitely ended.  I am scheduled for a D&C (yet again), for Monday at noon.  I am truly at peace.  I was fortunate enough to see the little heart beating after everyone thought that it was dead.  I'm thankful for that.  Now it's all about healing mind and body.  We did find out plenty of useful information in this wild process.  I will be going to an immunologist.  My OB/GYN found out through some blood work that I need to further investigate some things related to my immune system that may be hurting our efforts of conceiving.  I've always thought so, but no doc would listen.  I will also see a RE, per his request.  My doc is confident that I will be able to get pregnant again, the problem for me is sustaining it.  So, maybe all the doctors can put their heads together and figure it out.  If not,  it's ok, life will go on.  I'm grateful for my blessings.  I'll keep you all posted on the findings.  Once again, I want to thank this community of wonderful women for their support.  

Marie    

[babydust2009]

My prayers are with you and your DH.. Im going to see the RE  this month and I pray that we both can get pregnant again very soon.. LOTS OF BABY DUST  to you and your DH.. Keep us posted ... God Bless you both...Mary.

[msacha]

So funny you mentioned that.  One of the things that my doc mentioned is the fact that one of the tests that showed a questionable result, would indicate that perhaps I have a disorder that relates to having connective tissue problem.  He mentioned the name of the disorder, but I have never heard of it and quite frankly, I forgot what it's called.  He tried to explain it in the lamest terms and came up with "it's in the family of lupus".  If you know a little about lupus, you know that it is very difficult to diagnose it, because you have to kind of test positive to a number of things before they can conclusively say, yes, it is lupus.  So, in two weeks, he'll repeat the infamous blood work.  If it gives the same results, then I decidedly have to see an immunologist to get further, more comprehensive testing done in order to reach a more accurate diagnosis.  My doc also found that although my test results are not always the same, a few times he's seen evidence that perhaps I will benefit from taking heparin during pregnancy, along with daily baby aspirin.  All these things are new to me.  No other doc had even suggested to do this.  I'm not sure why, I've told them all that my body has been "attacking" my thyroid gland for years.  That's an immune system problem.  Anyhow, yes, like someone else said, we've learned a few things that may be very helpful in the future.  For that alone, I'm grateful.  

Thank you all for your love!

Marie

[waitn838]

i am sorry you had to go through this....i am happy though that your doc may have found something and hopefully a visit to the RE will help you....

i wish you the best and hope you stay in touch

[melimeli]

I am so sorry...  have you been tested for lupus?  good luck

[teachnz]

sorry for your loss....prayers for you and your family.....

[mamom15]

Sorry for your loss.  My prayers for you and your DH.  I am glad they found a cause and you can work on that