postpartum depression

[WhiteJasmineRose3]

I can't help but feel the insane urge to slit my wrists or put a bullet in my head. My husband is a horrible father to our daughter I hate being married but can't leave I have no money no car no family no place to go. I just sometimes want to kill myself and give my baby to a caring family so she doesn't grow up poor or has a bad childhood because her mom other can't make enough money without a man. I can't help but want to kill myself so bad tonight. I only don't because of my baby I can't give up but at the same time I'm so dead inside. I just want to die. I don't want to wake up next to my husband. He can't be trusted with the baby he handles her too rough and was yelling at me while burping her I stayed calm until he gave her back too afraid he might drop her. I hate myself so much right now I just don't know how to stay strong anymore

[susamor]

Can you call someone for a ride? Just pretend its a doctor appointment or something like that

[JessHall8783]

Call 911, sweetie. They'll come and help you. At least call a hotline and talk to someone.

[WhiteJasmineRose3]

Where I live I physically cannot go anywhere without a car so I'm stuck at home he has a car I don't there is no public transportation

[susamor]

Just think would you want to leave your daughter in the same situation you find yourself in? Dont leave her alone. You are the only one with her best interest at heart. A divorce can wait. Money will come with time, you'll find a way. Killing yourself is not a solution nor an option. Tell yourself that.  And get some help because there are a lot of resources out there for moms and babies that find themselves in your situation. There are shelters you can go to with your daughter. Just do it safely when he is not home. I will be praying for you. You'll get through this.

[JessHall8783]

Honey, you need to go to the ER right now. They will help you. Which is most important for you baby. You need to know...this is NOT your fault. You are NOT alone. This will get better and you will live a life that makes you happy. Your baby needs you. Please go get help. I know it's hard to take that first step but you must do it for your child. I am praying for you. Please remember you are NOT alone!!!

[almacecilia2008]

You can message me if you need to talk. The number that i gave you is a lifeline. They will give you all the resources that you need right now.Postpartum depression can trigger suicide thoughs. Please give them a call!!!!