Depression

[DestiniRivas10]

I'm 36+1, I've been depressed my ENTIRE pregnancy. Doctor Has Me On medication for It AND Also for my Anxiety.

Before I got pregnant I was going through the hardest time of my life,  my family and I lost out house or car and all our belongings . We went to California to find better jobs and came up dry again after 6 months of being there and me being 8 weeks pregnant we came back to az to live with my cousins.  11 people in a 4 bedroom house with 6 dogs 6 snakes 3 cats 3 ferrets and 2 breaded lizards.
My anxiety sky rocketed living in that house. After 3 months some family friends offered to let us come stay with them and they got my mom a job, ( I'm on bed rest and can't work )
She had to quit due to No way to work.
I started stressing even more because it was getting closer to having my son and I didn't have ANY THING :(
2 amazing people bought me everything I need for my son. Nd yes I am SOO thankful but It also made me really upset. I don't take anything from anyone and to have to rely on your one to buy things for me and my son hurt so much.  It adds on to my depression.

My depression is to the point where I just wanna sleep 24/7 I'm never hungry.  I eat cause I get bored or idunno what else todo.
Lately everyone has been telling me I'm rude and disrespectful and a bad person because I lock myself in my room and I don't wanna come out.  I don't wanna be around anyone.  Nobody understands what I'm going through and I keep trying to explain it and I just continue to get yelled at and mistreated.
I try explaining that I'm not distancing myself because of anyone but myself but they don't understand everyone says your pregnant suck it up and get over it.

I take 3 -4 showers a day just to get away from everything and everyone. Just to sit there with the water hitting me. If it didn't get cold I would probably never get out.

My pills help with my anxiety but they make me very mellow and more to myself . Doctor wants to wait till I have my son to put me on very strong medication to help me.


Has anyone else had depression like this in pregnancy?

[DestiniRivas10]

I feel the same thing but won't do anything because my son.
I have no support for this , they all say I'm disrespectful and rude. And basically it's all my fault.  
My doctor won't induce me

[xxtashaleexx]

Oh hunni i feel for u im also depressed but not on any medication most of the time i wanna kill myself but than i think how selfish i am cause it means i take my unborn childs life to and i also have 2 toddlers. My partner is selfish and abusive (used to be very physical but now its mental which is just as bad) and i feel i have no other choices =( i try and bring myself back up to feel happy but i always get knocked back down. I totally understand where ur at and friends and family should not be yelling at u for what ur going through they should be supportive and trying to help u. Have u tried speaking to a counselor? Sometimes it just feels good to have someone listen that is not going to judge u. Has the doctor thought about inducing early? As it would probably help with ur depression as it so bad? Im so sorry that ur going through this and i hope u get support and help. If u ever need someone to talk to ur welcome to msg me. Goodluck x

[DestiniRivas10]

I expressed to all family and friends how I was feeling and that I was depressed and I literally sat here for 2 hours being screamed at.  Now they wanna take me to the hospital to be evaluated .
I'm like this because everyone else

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