Feelings of Uncertainty. :'(

[Miss_Courtney]

There would be nothing more that I'd want than to parent my child. However, lately, I've been doubting myself. I only have 32 days left! I've never thought I'd be a mom @ 21. The thought of having kids crossed my mind, but I was always back & forth about it. My childbearing age was way older. My finances are somewhat okay now, but I admit that I'm nowhere near ready. I haven't bought anything yet. As the due date rapidly approaches, I'm getting more nervous. :/ Placing it for adoption was my 1st choice after I discovered I was pregnant, I'd love a better life for this baby. I'm no longer sure if I can do it. I hate feeling like this.

[Miss_Courtney]

Thanks, ladies! Reading your comments makes me feel so much better! :) I think I may be freaking myself out, since the date is coming soon. :(

[Ashtaylor]

I had my first  child at 16 and thought everything you are thinking but don't doubt yourself you will love this child more than anything I look at my boy today and I am so proud of him and myself I never in a million years would have thought he would have turned out to be the most caring loving boy that he is today I really couldn't imagine my life without him he is now 8 and I'm pregnant with his little brother or sister and he can't wait best of luck with everything hope it all works out for you

[ayshastokes]

I say if u do adoption..mke it open plz.. Im adopted..nd it wasnt open not a day goes by that i dont think of my mom dad and all my brothers nd sisters..i was adopted with 3other biological sibilings but there is still so many i dont knw.... So wen i found out i was pregnant it was kinda over welmn nd i said if i had to thi k about it,it would be open..it drives me crazy wen i go to the doc nd thy ask my family history or thing lke that..or see ppl with theire family nd who thy look nd act lke..all i know is wat thy look lke due to my adoptive parents..my life was okay..nd my birth parents ddnt choose..thy took us due to things she was doing..nd it could hve been open but it wasnt..so it hurts..but im strong im smart..i was an honor role student..great grades good friends nd head on my shoulders ,which isnt due to my adoptive mother bcuz it wasnt the best it was jst okay..plz think about it....ur baby knws u love em..so weather it be boy or girl. If u do adoption do it open....nd if u can do it open..think about keepn em bcuz ull see them grow up and think i could of did this  hve faith..ima keep u in my prayers.

[LovelylittleO032629]

I got pregnant at 19 with my first child I'm 21 now and having another one. Neither were planned and I was not ready financially or emotionally ready for a baby then and even now. But we are making it now with my little guy and I couldn't imagine my life any other way. It's ok to be nervous I was way way nervous I am now. But nothing is put in front of you that you can't handle. I believe everything happens for a reason and that we can handle anything. We may have a hard time getting it done but in the end it all works out. Stay positive and keep your head up :)

[mommyofkade]

Awe, its okay. I'm 19 years old this is my first child and I use to feel exactly how you felt. I thought about adoption too but I just couldn't go through with it because I believe that Ima be a great mother and I don't want complete strangers raising my baby. You will be a great mother too. You should start buying for the baby :]

[Heavensmommy1]

Look into some help there's many programs that ccan help ik how you feel this is my first child and I'm only 18 I'm scared s***less (excuse my French) but I have so much love for my little girl already. I've watched youtube videos of women with there children and I feel so lucky to be having one. OK your scared but once you get used to it you'll be a great mommy. Good luck!!

[luxah]

I'm sorry you haven't been able to get things for your baby, have you tried craigslist and other things where you might be able to get thi gs either very cheap or free? I can't tell you what you should do, but if you feel adoption is better than do that. There are open adoptions so you can be in contact with your baby as it grows. Have you looked for help from family or government assistance?  I don't know of all the things they offer, but it could help. But you gotta do whats best for your baby. Don't feel so down though, its not easy I know but feeling that way isn't gonna help. I wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide.

[aali4]

You can do it!! :-) Dont worry, no one is ever ready.. no matter how many diapers, wipes, etc. We get. I have twins already and still am in shock a year later!! What you're feeling is normal. Whether you know the gender or not, go buy (or online) a couple of things, so you can get use to seeing your baby's things and make it more real.. Congrats on your bundle!! :-)