Please help. Postpardum question

[Liz0718]

I am 22 and had a baby 7months ago, and I don't feel like I have fully recovered. I am dizzy all the time! I am tired,fatigued, and have been having chest pains. I also haven't hadmy period in a year and a half. I am trying to stop breast feeding, and now underneath my left breast I will get shooting pains. I breastfeed once a day in hopes to tamper off. But since her birth, I feel dizzy all the time, weak rather often, and I will get this light nausea occasionally. I also have severe back pains and neck pains. I sleep with her so I don't get much sleep, but yet I do. I have also picked up a drinking problem (but I don't breast feed until I am completely sober). I drink 2 to 4 times a week, and I will either get tipsy or totally wasted. I don't know what's going on. I also have weird, paranoid fears....In November I SWORE I had rabies. I made my peace with friends and families, and cried every night. In December, I was convinced I had a brain tumor, and again cried and made my peace. In January it was anuerisms, Feb it was heart attacks, March was a lung infection, and now I am moving towards a stroke. I know it's crazy for me to know this is crazy, but in the height of my"mood" I don't think clearly, I cry and freak out about TRULY thinking I am dying. My life has not been normal since I had her! I always think I am dying, I get depressed, I have anxiety attacks, I feel dizzy, have chestpains, back pains, headaches!!!!! HELP! PLease, I am desperate for some answer.. Is it normal for me not to have a period still? Is it normal for me to feel like this? Oh, and I have gone to the hospital and they found nothing wrong with me. PLEASE HELP ME...I am miserable, and not getting to enjoy my baby as much as I should. (Oh, and I don't feel any anger towards the baby or regret about the baby, I love her dearly and I NEVER feel any anger towards her)
AGAIN...I BEG...PLEASE HELP

[tdub321]

Girl, you don't have to go through this without help!  If you have depression and anxiety that is disrupting your life, see a counselor!  There is so much help out there, there is no shame in seeking it.  It doesn't mean you're "crazy" or that something is wrong with you.  Having an expert, objective listener will help you understand where these fears and thoughts are coming from and how you can cope with them.  

Do it for your own sake and for your sweet baby girl. Good luck and god bless!

[LACh1]

I think you should go and see your doctor - tell them about all your concerns and health issues and they will be able to set you on track and find out what is going on.  You may need some medication to help you stop producing milk, blood test to check iron and thyroid or even some thing to help you sleep.  I had PND after my first child and needed to go on antidepressents and have someone to talk to - it was mainly anxiety but it really did help.  Please go and get some help as you cannot be the best mom you want to be if you are not happy, rested and healthy.