Losing it.

[KoriAnn]

This whole pregnancy, I've kept my emotions and mental illness in check. But the past few days I am ******* losing it.
I refuse to take my medicine while pregnant. Which is valid,  to me.  

I am just about to have a meltdown,  and there is nothing I can do to prevent it anymore.  


Not really a question.. Just trying to distract myself -__-

[KoriAnn]

I'm sorry hun..
I haven't mentioned anything to my fiance either.. He is so stressed, I feel like that would be the icing on the cake for him.
I know I am strong enough not to act on anything,  but it's tough,  for sure..
I wish you the best of luck and strength kmp56287

[kmp56287]

I'm with you on this one, i refuse to take my meds for anxiety and depression because I don't want my daughter to have them in her system,  my depression has gotten to the point where I feel like I have to cut again but I tell myself that my daughter would be hurt if I chose to do so,  I put on a face just for my loved ones and boyfriend, but I can only hang on for so much longer, it's just nice to know I'm not alone.

[KoriAnn]

Weeks*
That's what has gotten me this far n_n
I've made an appointment with my psychiatrist for tomorrow.. So I'm hoping that will help a little o_0

[rachaelbutsch]

You can do it just try and think what's best for your little one maybe that will help your almost done only 20 some odd days left

[Pink_Diamonds]

You're almost done though :) just a few more days!!

[KoriAnn]

Pregnancy hormones have surprisingly helped balance everything out,  until now.
I'm almost 37 wells,  and they're changing again I suppose..

[KoriAnn]

I tried basic relaxing things,  like baths,  and stretching. But I could only trick myself for soso long. Haha

I was diagnosed with bipolar-schizophrenia, and by the time I went through a psychiatrist and got diagnosed (and hospitalized for suicidal thoughts), I found out I am pregnant.
I was perscribed Latuda because it is supposed to be pregnancy safe,  but I'm not comfortable talking an anti psychotic during pregnancy.

I just feel like I'm falling backwards again. Uncontrollable thoughts and emotions.

[Pink_Diamonds]

Why are you about to lose it? And what kind of meds is it for your pregnancy?  Please give more info!

[AlejandraMV]

Have you tried Yoga or breathing exercises to help ease your mind?