Mourning

[cherrybmbb]

Its a long long story, but I'll do my best to keep it short. When I was 13 months old I was taken from my parents to be raised by my great grandparents due to unsafe environment (drugs, violence, etc) but I love my parents both dearly. After moving to Missouri to be with her mom, My mom had always kept in contact, and always promised to come visit so I could meet her and my little sister. On July 8th of this year, my sister called me and was very upset (she's only 12). Our mom passed away in her sleep due to possible overdose on pain killers (she had just had surgery and was extremely depressed). I never met her, or got to say goodbye.. and this was the day after my first appointment which is when I found out for sure I was pregnant with my first child. I had been so excited to be able to tell her but never got the chance.. I feel like no one understands the situation, besides my fiance but I just don't want to bring him down with it anymore. How can I try and get over this? My fiance and I went to MO and met my family, and went to my mother's funeral. I have one of the urns, but I just feel so sad about it constantly (and I have a bad past for depression and coping). Any advice? I'm sorry this was so long and I appreciate anyone who helps. Thank you..

[kopelitsa11]

This story breaks my heart :( I'm so sorry you are going through this..just know your mother will always be looking after you...my father passed 7 years ago the day he was supposed to come home from the hospital. He was getting a bronchoscopy done and they injected him with the wrong sedative..a sedative that a cardiac patient should of never been given..that put him in tachycardia and he died..I was the last to speak with him before his procedure..after I told him I loved him and hung up the phone I just had this bad feeling..the reason why I said your mom will always be there looking after you is because a couple of months after my father died I was driving home from work ..it was about 11 pm and rainy..I was driving on a country road ..I had a Jeep at the time..all of a sudden I lost control of my car..and my car started to crash into trees and big boulders..the second this started to happen I heard this pop..a bright white light surrounded my car..I was so afraid it was going to flip..my car started to spin and then stopped..I tried to start it but it wouldn't..the road had no lights so I could not see extent of damage. I called 911..when they arrived all my tires were off..my passanger side was completely smashed..I wasn't wearing a seatbelt and left without a scratch..the following morning about 7am my mom called me..she said are you ok, she preceded to tell me my dad came to her in a dream and told her to call me because I was in an accident..I was shocked..I really should of been severly injured if not worse..your mom sees ..knows what's in your heart..talk to her..she hears you...I'm a firm believer in that.  Once again so sorry for your loss and God Bless.

[cherrybmbb]

Thank you.. I'm trying to stay strong.. especially for my son and sister, just gets hard at times not having anyone who really understands to talk to.

[midcoats]

I'm so sorry hun, I can't imagine how you feel. Maybe you could try and find out if your mom had a favourite song or book or something that you can read/sing to your growing bump? Then your mom will have a special connection with your baby. Good luck mommatobe

[lovingmylife_19]

Im so sorry this happen to you ,  the best thing to do now is keep your head up for your baby and little sister , your mom knows you love her and now looking down on you your baby and everyone else in the family , things take time if you need to cry let it out don't hold it in :( God knows what he's doing , your baby is a blessing from god , a blessing that will keep you going and motivated , talk to god he hears us all the time heals all wounds . Again so very sorry .

[cherrybmbb]

Tabatha

[KanesMommy0315]

What was your mothers name??