I agree with both of you thanks so much I can go to my grandmas and stay with her but I just hate to leave my own house where my kids have there own rooms, its our home and I know he wont leave but I guess I will just have to do what I need to do and put up with staying somewhere instead of being miserable everyday I feel like I cry for no reason but there really is a reason its like all these old memories coming back into my mind.
If he's hit you then it's not fixable. I'm a ftm but I've been in a abusive relationships. I am so sorry you are going through this. I don't believe in staying with someone who has hit you and if you stay your not putting your kids in a very safe place. If he's hit you and he watches the kids by himself he could hit your little girl. I say that you are better off raising your kids alone than to be with someone abusive. I hope all works out for you hun.
If he has hit you even if it was just one time then you need to take your daughter and leave. Yup don't want her to grow up thinking it's ok to let a guy beat her and you don't need your son growing up thinking it's ok to hit women. Your kids will see and hear every fight and it's going to affect them so you need to do what's best for your children and get out of that environment before it gets worse.