AF came today:( back to the drawing board CD1

[Latrice414]

AF came today, i am so sad now, this really bites.  I dont think i even have the energy or motivation to do this all over again.  Wow, seeing AF brought back so many bad emotions/feelings.  I did not no seeing a BFN and AF would make me this down.  At least i no why i was eating so much, im slightly depressed. I dont no, i may see some of you in the 2ww and might not, i need to regroup.  TTC is like a bad joke, you have all the tools to make it happen and you time everything right, then BAAM sorry, not your turn, try again next month.  Going to go cry somemore now, crying cleanses the soul, and i do not want to keep this emotional disappointment inside.

Much baby dust to those still waiting to test, happy healthy nine months to the BFP's and to the still ttc's SSBD

[Latrice414]

Im still trying to pick my uterus up off the floor,(lol) i mean my face:) Its so hard not to have expectations when deep down inside you no what you WANT. I tell my son all the time, those are just wants you have what you need. When you need something it will be provided, WOW at not being able to tell my self that.

Sweet, it did make me smile:)

Mumita i agree with you, it is a want and not a need, its just hard not to want.

Gokuangel, im sorry AF came for you, and crying, breathing and relaxing is a must

Jen, yea i was thinking of taking a break or just going with the flow, im still confused on how to go about this, i might just be going with the flow because i didnt even get up today to take my temp at 5:30

msgoregous, im sorry AF came for you, im going to try and not let it get me too down, and hopefully that baby with my name on it will come soon

Amy, yea it does bites, and its so draining

Joy, yea crying does help, i hope your feeling better

krushing & mommy im sorry AF came for you to, i guess i ll c if im going to be in that tww or not, im sure a new post will be up, maybe i ll feel better once CD10 gets here, i ovulate around CD15

Leighann and Laura ty for your kind responses

Well you ladies sure do up lift my spirits, you are so supportive and thoughtful and i just wanted to say TY and to let you no that i pray everynight thanking god for this forum and the wonderful women on here and to bless the women on here with beautiful healthy babies.  I hope soon we do get BFP and those who have BFP i wish you a healthy happy nine months:)

[gokuangel]

*hugs* i know how you feel im the in the exact same boat!! My AF came Sunday and i have been so upset ever since my emotions are all over the place!! If you need to cry go ahead i finally had to and i think today i feel somewhat better!! I think we just to take a breather and relax and maybe follow Mumita's advice!! Its the best i can think of at this moment but if u need anything feel free to message me we are all here to listen!!!

[Mumita]

My advice to you is the same that I'm trying to remind myself now because I didn't take my own advice.
When you have no expectations then its hard to be dissapointed and you can be wonderfully surprised.  When you have expectations the surprise element is gone becuase you expect it to happen and the risk of dissapointment is HIGH.  Next cycle, have no expectations and let your body do what it does.
Take a break, enjoy life and sex and what you already have, you don't -NEED- to be pregnant you just WANT to be pregnant and it will happen when the time is right.

I will read this myself every day and remind myself to let nature take its course....

[Jen133]

I'm so sooorryyy sweetie....... I know how you feel... That's exactly how I felt when I saw af after my mc.  I tought I was going to be like one of those stories and get my bfp right away, but that was not the case.  Maybe it ias a good idea that you do take a break.  That's what I'm doing and it feels good.  I mean I'm not preventing it but if it happens it happens.

Im sorry again sweetie, if you need to talk you know where I am.

Take care and yes cry it out :-) It will be good for you.

Jen

[msgorgeous]

sorry latrice i know how much you wanted this :) HUGS for you girlie dont let it get you down too long theres a baby up there with your name on it :) I got af too this month i was disappointed and i cried but i know that theres always next time. my time will come just like yours will. just stay positive being depressed wont help. and ill be here with you every step of the way because we are soo close in are cycles. i know you could use a few ttc buddies again, we are all here to support you and i know its a long hard process to deal with especially getting af month after month. but like i said before your time will come and it will be worth it :) ***SSBD***

[mommyoftwo28644]

HUGS :o) I know how you feel girl, I was the same way last week when AF showed up on me early. I ended up calling my OBGYN and got an appt with the RE in Oct to see if there is anything we can do that will help since I have been irregular since March. I love the cleansing the soul because I sure do cleanse my soul alot here lately. I am on CD 7 right now and usually O around CD 20 so we are pretty much in the same cycle again. Lots of Hugs and SSBD and I hope that next month is your month!! :o) Hugs

[amy0013]

HUGE HUGS Latrice!!  I totally empathize with your feelings this month.  You're so right...it's NOT fair...you do everything "right" and time everything perfectly and spend all that time stressing about it only to be let down.  UGH...it's so draining!!!  I hope to see you in the TWW this month (I'm CD4!)...but I do understand that taking a break can be essential too.  Hang in there!

[LauraB78]

Awww. I am soo sorry you are feeling down!

I will keep my fingers crossed that next month is your month!!

**BABYDUST**

[krushing]

((Hugs)) Latrice!  I know how you feel.  I got AF Saturday and cried all day.  Take a break if you need to.  DH and I aren't going to stress this cycle with all of the testing, etc. with RE.  We are just going to go with the flow and if it happens then good, if not, then I'll go back to RE.  If you do decide to try this month, I'm a cycle buddy!  I'm on CD4, so I'm not that far ahead of you!  Good luck in whatever you decide to do.

Kristy

[leighanne143]

that feeling does suck. I am sorry you are going through this.  you will get your BFP very soon, keep your chin up.

[sweetangel7]

Hugs!  Sometimes a break is what we need and then a bfp will sneak up on you!  July was kind of like my break and I got my bfp after 7 months of seeing bfn and af.  Crying is good too...I like what you said about it cleansing the soul...I must have very clean soul because I cry a lot.  Maybe this will give you a good laugh:  There is this one commercial about this veteran who is endorsing John Kerry in MA...he says how he was injured by a road side bomb and that the care he got was fantastic at Walter Reed, and how it is thanks to John Kerry, and then he tells about how the GI bill is helping him go to college, and then he says how John Kerry is even taking care of the soldiers who aren't lucky enough to come home by increasing the death benefit from 12,000 to 250,00 AND then he says how John Kerry visited the hospital and the guy asked if he could receive his purple heart at Fenway Park and John Kerry made his dream come true and he got to throw the first pitch...ANYWAYS, I cry every time that commercial is on...My husband is like, "aren't you used to that story by now..." and he gives a little chuckle like I'm losing it lol  There is another one about animals in shelters that gets the tears going to.  Sometimes I hear children reading with me at school and they are doing such a good job and I know they are improving, I cry because I am soo happy and proud!  The kids get a good chuckle out of it too!  Hopefully it at least got you to crack a smile.  

=) Heather

[JoyRenee]

I know how you feel, sweetie! *HUGS* Give yourself time if you need to. It can be quite a blow to get a BFN and AF. Crying is definitely good to help get those emotions out. I had myself a good cry everyday since Sunday (and I don't cry!!! I'm a pretty stoic/serious person).

[Liberty7]

Oh poor baby I hope you feel better soon really really soon just keep trying hun It'll happen soon beside's making the baby is the fun part lol