21week.. facing still birth

[hotmama78]

So mamas... I am 21weeks.. I posted earlier and still need to vent.. my u/s turn today turn to be boom timer when doctor doesn't see any activities from my little baby boy and couldn't find the heart beat... broke down as 2 weeks ago everything seems normal.. heart rate is 150 and blood test all seems right. I am clueless why this happen?? I am going for 2nd opinion tomorrow and its kinda kill me. Till now I none stop crying and hoping for miracle to happen tomorrow.. but if not then will I facing still birth? Any has been thru this?? Doctor say blood flow not reach my baby chest and head around :( I am 1st time mom & has been miscarriage 4 time before.. this is the longest pregnancy I ever been.... I am so lost and since this morning I feel dying :((

[tmd10811]

I Just had a friend tell me they couldn't fond the heartbeat on her daughter and scheduled her to have a d&c and she got a second opinion and it all was fine!

[Melenita]

i am so sorry you are going through this, God has his reasons, many of which we dont understand, but draw strength from him.....
i have never expierenced something like this, so i really dont know how you are feeling.... i will say special prayers for you and your husband. you are in my thoughts.....
God bless you !

[hotmama78]

Alyce dear.. its killing me!!! I am feeling already dying and I just don't know why I still here writing :((

[chantelleAlyce]

Oh I'm so so sorry to hear :( I went through this 8 days ago my son was born 20 weeks gestation sleeping :( my boy didn't move in me for two days and then the doctor and hospital confirmed he had passed. Its the hardest thing to ever go threw. Get all the photos you can with your boy, and lots of keepsakes. Hold your baby for as long as you want. It will be hard but you'll never have the chance to again and this way youl be able to cherish the moments you did have with him. Again I'm sorry and I no exactly how you feel. Rileys room was all set up we had so many plans organised for when he was born. Its weird because riley was perfectly healthy to. :( I'm getting counceling and I got his name tattooed on me. My Babys funeral will be held next Thursday. If you ever need to talk I'm here for you. It is the worst feeling in the world :(

[hotmama78]

:(( :(( :(( Aidan baby why leave mommy so soon???????????????? Why Dan dan baby?????? You will have great daddy wonderful mommy why saying goodbye now???????? We plan already visit aunty Barbara at Aussie... aunty Susanne in Germany... aunty Jiji in Philippines... and mommy just trying to make some good friends here Aidan baby... mommy not yet ready to say see you again... mommy was born pink and mommy really looking forward to discover your blue world... why not give mommy a chance....???? How mommy wanna live now Aidan baby? With dreaming of how will your 1st smile... how cute when you cry??? When you reach 3 and go daycare how will you behave? Who will play block with daddy? Cycling to mountain like daddy use to tell you... daddy promise to teach you all about gadget and how to tackle girls when you grown up... what happen with our dreams of Disneyland??? Beaches with mommy and daddy??? Who will apply sunblock for mommy??? How mommy milk which mommy plan to give u up to 3 years... do you know Aidan baby we plan you will be the one and only... what will happen to mommy and daddy after you leave us??? How about the very nice big house daddy buy just for you to grown up so you can rolling... running... and this that??? What will happen now Aidan baby....??? Omg sweetheart I really has many plan for you already... where should mommy begin??? All the dreams already have you in it...!!! Howwwwwwwwww????? :(( :(( :(( :(( :(( :(( :(( oh poor boy you really took the entire part of me with you!!!!!!

[Stacey91]

This has actually made me cry, im so sorry you have to go through this, thoughts and prayers go out to you and your husband, and baby, I honestly dont no what to say because I dont no what myself would do, just try to cherrish your last moments and let him no you'll always love him (though im sure u already have) :( we r all here if u ever want to chat.. Hugs and prayers xxxxxx

[hotmama78]

I really don't know where to begun from here... tomorrow we will do the c-sec to still birth baby aidan.. tonight gonna be the last night I am with him in my belly.. what should I do to make it special :( I really love my boy... but I don't know how to be strong now :(( :((

[ms_feb]

I'm so sorry to hear that I will pray for u...

[hotmama78]

UPDATE everyone... baby Aidan saying goodbye mommy.. goodbye daddy... :(((( :(((( :(((

[TxMamma]

Tons of prayers for you, baby, and husband.

[lilmummy]

Hey, i'm so sorry your going thru this, let us know how it goes, you and your little boy are in my thoughts xx

[hotmama78]

Walking zombie to 2nd opinion now waiting... tears none stop badly!!! So scare so fear so many mixed feeling I just don't know how to describe... dear Lord show me some mercy!!! Amen..

[ivy63731]

i pray for u!!!

[Spiket77]

My heart breaks for you and I pray for a miracle.
Peace to you!

[cjappert]

I'm so sorry.I went through the same thing in May, and reading your post just broke my heart since I know exactly hors you feel.I was induced and delivered my baby boy stillborn.they let us hold him and made us a little box with pictures of  his little hands and feet.they also put his hospital card with his name, weight and size on it,as well as his hospital bracelets. Its been 8 1/2 months and some days are still very hard, but it does get better.

[Blue_eyes2012]

Amen

[hotmama78]

Mamaoff... midget dear I hope the same too, I love Baby Aidan so much... finger cross... not really sleeping... a bit spinning.... Saturday do me a miracle... amen..

[midget89]

Praying for you and your sweet lil boy... God Bless!!!!

[mamaof4410]

I hope it doesn't turn out to be the worst case scenario.
You and your precious baby boy are in my prayers!

[hotmama78]

Thanks everyone I just don't know where to begun from here..... so so sad :((

[hotmama78]

Thanks everyone I just don't know where to begun from here..... so so sad :((

[agrell]

Sending prayers your way

[greatexpectations_4_2012]

Praying for you and your little boy.

[hotmama78]

Thank you dear... its hard Friday 13th for me!!!