Okay so I'm just kind of freaking out... I'm under so much stress and I know that's not helping anything at the moment. I have a very high risk pregnancy, I have crohns and am currently 29 weeks with a baby boy. This pregnancy had been very difficult on my physically and mentally. I was told a few years ago that the likely hood of me being able to have child was very very low, and that for a safe pregnancy my crohns would have to be completely under control.
Well I was not in complete control with it when I got pregnant so is been a struggle day to day. I've been in the hospital four times so far and on tons of medications. I'm on prednisone, pain medications (some times and only when really needed), antibiotics, and a shot for the crohns once a week. All these medications are not recommended for use during pregnancy, however without them my doctor says I would have no carried this far. On top of all that I also haven't been able to work bc of being on and of of bed rest and very light duty. So I feel so unprepared to say the least. I've always wanted a child and was so happy when I found out, but my worry has overwhelmed all my happy positive thoughts.
I got out of the hospital two days ago, again, and the doctor noticed my baby boys heart beat was irregular. It sounded really off and would jump from the 70s up to the 190s at times. Of course I told the doctor to take me off all the medications I'm on if it would help baby, but she said that the medications were the only thing keeping me and baby going. So I have to drive two hours next week to a special hospital to have baby checked.
Idk what to do...I'm so scared. I just want a healthy baby boy. I just want to cry. Anyone been through any of this before?