Guilty

[lovemykids465]

I had a real bad day yesterday and I took it out on my family. I feel so bad. Of course it was Kate's Birthday too. I have not been able to make it to the gym all week ( due to winter break and sick kids) and I realized it is a major stress relief for me. Then I had to take the dog to the vet and go to work. I had go leave the office and pick up my 10year old ( I am the only one in office all week) b/c he was giving the other kids a hard time. In the mean time one of my friends calls me and her car is not starting so she needs a ride to work. I run pick up my son, go the 5 miles to get her ( not far) and her kids, drop her kids off at day care, take her to work., pick up one of my sons friends to help keep him entertained while I work ( big mistake) run to the bakery and pick up a cake seeing I will not have time to make one and decided to run my KFC and pick up some chicken ( Kate's favorite me never get it b/c to me it is so unhealthy but I figure what the heck) and pharmaceutic to pick up more meds. In the mean time my kids are calling and texting me like mad.

We have to shovel out the parking lot due to all the snow, I let the boys play and I get to work. Every 10 to 15 min they are interrupting me. I have people coming in for food and clothing assistance, my phone won't stop ringing. My mom is calling me to get a hold of someone to plow her drive way. Then my friend calls me, she is sick and needs a ride back home. Pile in the van run to get her. Have so wait 10 min for her to close up her office, then run to day care to pick up he kids, then she needs to run to the store so I take her. In the meantime her kids get in a fist fight in my car. Ones nose  is bleeding. I do not have anything to give him. I take off one of my shirts ( dressed in layers) to stop the blood that is all over the place now.. My son is freaking out because he does not handle being closed in with people fighting. Then mom comes out and is now screaming at her kids. I take them home. Drop my sons friend off and clean blood out of van. I walk in my back door and my house is a flipping mess!!! I lost it. I am screaming and yelling. Throwing stuff all over the place ( the crap my kids have laying around). Now Kate is crying ( her birthday) Caleb is making every excuse in the book why he is to sick to clean but not to sick to make a mess of my kitchen. My husband calls and I am ranting like a mad woman.He tells me to calm down. I hang up and go shower ( realize I haven not eaten all day and forgot to take my medicine for two days now, thus the real bad mood) I apologize to kids and then call hunbby remind him to go by and pick up Kate's gift I had on hold at the store. He FORGETS!!!! It is only 2 min from his office. Now I have nothing for her! *( New cell phone) I call there and b/c he did not get it they sold it to someone else and will not have one till Sat! I am pissed so now I am screaming and yelling at him. No one feels like having cake , we eat, Joe has to go to a meeting and I run to the store to try to find something to give Kate until we get her phone. I tell our youngest to tell dad where I went, He does not. Now Kate and Joe think I flipped my lid and left! She is in tears. Decides  to go to movie with friends. Joe is driving all over looking for me. I left my phone off so I could have solitude. I get home and every one is freaking out! Now I am mad that Kate is not home so we can get this stupid birthday over with !!! ( what  a jerk I am) I go up and finish painting Josh's bed room. Joe takes a nap. Kate gets home at 10 and we have cake and she opens gifts,


I did finish room at 2am. Everyone else in bed, I feel like a butt hole! Everyone is okay today,. They all apoligize for not helping out more , Joe tells me I need to learn to say no to people to cut down my stress.

We wake up to 7 inches of fresh snow and  it is still snowing. Joe calls me , roads are bad , and now the intake manifold on car just went. Had to call a tow truck. Hoping it can be fixed by the time he gets off work. OMG!!!


I feel so bad for being such a jerk.

[brice1967]

Both of your posts reminded me of something I saw on one of those creepy talk shows, like Jerry Springer or something.  A guy in the military was having a problem with his wife.... she wasn't able to keep the house exactly has he liked, the laundry was often backed up, his favorite groceries weren't always available, dinner wasn't always prepared on time, mom and kids were sometimes late getting home.... just any number of thing.

The wife was out here first, and she proudly listed all of her husbands accomplishments regarding his career.  Obviously she was very proud of him.  She then began to tell what the problem was.  (What I listed above)  The husband comes out and says he loves his wife more than anything, and his kids are his world, and he couldn't be happier than to be home in one piece and be able to spend a lot of time with his family.  He then began to complain about the things listed above.  In fact, they were both kind of belly aching.

Anyhow, long story short.... they kind of switched roles.  She kind of went through a boot camp and he had to do all of the house chores, take care of the kids, and do a job on base similar to hers..... if turned out to be really funny and both ended up having a greater respect for their significant other

[lovemykids465]

Thank you. It puts things in perspective!

[thehitman357]

Did I tell you the time I was being shot at in Iraq. Thats life, it happens. Drive on girl.