Do I love my boyfriend?

[Zoe646]

At the moment, for the past 3 months I have been non stop obsessing about loving my boyfriend. But it is my feeling that fluctuate which make me panic. It came on all of a sudden in one day. I got all these negative feelings towards him which made me have anxiety attacks, iv been throwing up and been on the toilet. I now feel so depressed. Even though  i get these negative feelings I also got really strong feelings towards him, whereby i absolutely adore him. I never stop thinking about it I even dream about him behaving like my ex boyfriend, who was abusive in many ways. My boyfriend is the sweetest guy I have ever met and i suppose im not used to it. I find it so difficult getting out in the bed in the morning as I get negative feelings all the time. It also depends when I'm with him. At the moment it feels as though im not sexually attracted to him but that tends to change. Before all this happened I couldn't get enough of him. I felt as though we were soul mates. Then all of a sudden this happened. Im so confused, I am going through therapy as its ruining my whole life I was wondering if anyone could please please help me. I don't want to lose someone as special as him and I miss the way it was, he hasn't done anything different, but something odd has came over me. I have literally been going through hell. Shaking, hyperventilating, vomiting, on the toilet, non stop moving, constant crying and not being able to find pleasure in anything. please please help, I can't live like this anymore. I also relate everything I see and hear about our relationship, please help.


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[mami1323]

I agree with RockRose...you need to seek some therapy.  

[RockRose]

I think this has nothing to do with your relationship,  and everything to do with you.

It sounds like you have an extreme anxiety disorder,  which often comes with depression also.

Are you on meds?