I can't figure out why i'm acting like this , i'm distroying my life

[sannouna2]

Well I'm 22 years old Female , it's my final year at college and it's only a moth for gratuation. So i spent the whole year sleeping i had lots of opprutunity to be better but i didn't use it .
I alwayse deside want and think abouth doing the good thing for me but never does, i alwayse taught about going to gim becoz sport is a healthy positif thing , but i alwayse had some financial problems so that option is alwayse out .
Actually i have a boyfiend that i rally love , and he does love me a lot , but the problem is that when i love someone i give him everything , and i have opened my heart to him more than i should , but him he didnt do the same , he did love me but not enaugh , i feel like he loved me and at a point he chose to stop and keep loving me at a certaint degree , i dont know but i do have that feeling .
it's been tow years for us together , and here in my country girls dont leave theire parents houses until marriage , thats is our community.  So we love each other and we wanted to be engaged so we had lots of troubles about  that , some family troubles but after that we decided to put those trouble behinde and move on. But i'm really really tiered of this relation ship , I love him so much , i cant imagine my self with out him but he is not treating me as i deserve , i beleive that he does know how much i love him and that makes him do what ever he want and say what ever he wants to me with out considering my feelings " he shout at me for stupid things and when i explain to him and he descovers that he is rong he doesnt say anything and do not say anything about it , i alwayse try with him to make him open up with me , to open his hart with me and talk like some norml men who are in love do but he doesnt , and that really drives me crazy. Few days a go i found out that he is talking with an ex on facebook , i asked him to tell me what is going on he didnt want to but after that he told me and showed me what they are talking abouth , she was sending kiss and hurts to him and they were like joking and laughing but i couldnt accept it , i just couldnt , i didnt make a story out of it but he was like its norml thing becos her family is friends with mine and all of that , but i have a big feeling inside that she isn't a good person becoz she knows taht he loves someone and she is poting things and comminting on his facebook sending mssges all the time and he too he is talking to her , and becos of that thing we have started to fight all the time on stupid things , and specially him he is a making a story from stupid thing , and when i talk to him on the phone i hear in his voice that he doesnt wanna talk with me , and that rally hurts , it hurts a lot ... well i'm lost becos he is not soo bad he came to talk to before this girl thing and he said i know i'm not so fair with you and all and i promise that i will do good things and that i love and that i will never cheat or do something bad behinde you ... i dont know any more what to do , beleive him or keep beeing super suspecius and destroy our relationship, or what's left of it

[dragrat]

glad to hear things are good. I honestly feel that love can conquer any wall that stands in your way..As long as you love each other and communicate your true emotions and accept those in return then any challenge can be overcome. Good luck and God speed

[dragrat]

Well i cant say what you should do but i can say this. I have always been the guy who had lots of friends that were girls. I did not have ill intentions with any of these friends. But my wife would not believe me. She accused me of doing things with girls i hadn't even met. My mother always told me that when this situation arises that instead of accusing, instead ask if their is anything that your partner is missing. Is there anything what he/she desires from you. When alot of guys start flirting with any girl its because they are putting pieces of something your relationship is lacking. It may be as simple as a girl just listening to simple story that you may have blown off or just putting him first. Accusing him of something you believe is happening that is not...well it will push him away.  He may be flirting only to fill a void that is missing..he may not even realize that this girl is flirting with him or that he is with her.  If you jump to conclusions it can ruin a relationship. Trust me on that. But if you let it go unnoticed and do not make an attempt to see if there is anything that is missing then things will only get worse.

[sannouna2]

Thnc you for responding, i didnt check my account for a while bcs i was taking care of fraduation exams, and i made it thankfully ^_^ .
Well i did faced the thing that was going on by egnoring him for 3 days with no calling so that i could give my self and him too the sensation of loosing one enother espacially him, and for me giving my self these few days to adjust with living with out him if something does rong.
But i did called him after that and i spoke seriously with him, and he decided to stop talking with that girl bcs deep inside he knew it was rong what he is doing "ps he have many female friends and i have no problem with that , only this one " .
Finely every thing is fine now i'm happy, we are happy. And i got out from this with a conclusion Love is important do not waste it but we should love our selfs first and learn how to repect our selfes.