I'm bisexual, and i'm going out with one of my friends (she's female too) from school. She was the first person i talked to about being bisexual and i was the first person she talked to about it, i think.
In 2008, we went out in the summer holidays. It was hard, because we didn't want to tell anyone about it yet. We broke up after about a month, because she was feeling guilty that she had a crush on someone else and because i was getting too attached.
I then asked her out in January of 2009 and we've been going out since, and things have been ok. There was even a chance of her kissing me this weekend. However, we had a big argument today, when she said that i was too attached and that i need to try and disattach myself a bit by finding a hobby or getting new friends. I agree that i am too attached, but i dont know how to disattach myself without ending up hating her! Finding friends is hard, i used to have more in my class at school, but for some reason they've stopped talking to me (i think it was because of me being bisexual and hanging out in the wrong 'group').
Anyway, the argument was really big and we both got very upset and angry. We took a few hours apart to calm down, which helped. Im still meeting up with her on Friday, but there's no chance of kissing or anything. She said that we can still be together, but just not as..serious as we were because we were probably too young for all the 'i love you i want to spend the rest of my life with you stuff' (and i do agree there).
But im really stuck on how i disattach myself! I dont want to hate her, and i dont want to lose her either. Right now, it seems as though there is no hope of us ever being the same again, and i feel really restricted, not just because of the argument. I dont know what i can or cant do anymore. Im a naturally quiet person, and im scared of rejection, so i dont want to risk doing something like hugging her or snuggling anymore because im scared of her pushing me away.
Please help!
xx