I'm sixteen years old and for as long as I can remember, I've disliked touching and being touched by other people. Hugs and handshakes are always uncomfortable, and I usually flinch when someone's hand brushes against me unexpectedly. I'm weirded out by cuddling and the like; I just don't understand the appeal.
I don't enjoy talking with other people. I have only two people who I'd consider friends, and even then, we mostly just sit together during lunch. We rarely meet up after school. During these occasions I barely talk. This summer, I haven't talked with anybody outside my extended family. I find interacting with most people annoying and mentally draining. This means that social events my parents drag me to are hell on earth; having to smile and make small talk and pretend to find a stranger's unfunny joke hysterical is exhausting. I prefer to be on my own most of the time.
I don't actually have any desire to form any relationships with people. I see all of these people laughing and chatting with each other in twos and threes, and I feel nothing. When in school, I see people complaining about not having a boyfriend/girlfriend all the time, but I just don't get the hype. I don't have any want to hold hands, kiss or cuddle with anyone. I'd be perfectly content to lounge around the house reading a book or playing a game alone for the rest of my life, and I'd probably be pretty happy with it. I'm not asexual though; I've been attracted to a lot of different people on screen and in real life, and I masturbate around 3-5 times a week.
If you're curious, I had a very happy, healthy childhood. I grew up in a loving two parent household with a younger brother and a sister. According to my parents I was relatively quiet as a child, but very friendly and could connect well with other kids my age. I never had any sort of traumatic experience, save for accidentally getting the hook of a coat hanger stuck in my eyelid when I was five (it healed perfectly within a few weeks and I've never experienced any vision problems).
Also, I've researched possible conditions like Asperger's and I feel that I don't fit most of the criteria.
-Inability to recognise social cues: I easily recognise body language and changes in expression, along with recognising sarcasm and shifts in tone. I also behave accordingly based on the circumstances.
-Avoidance of eye contact: I easily maintain comfortable levels of eye contact with others.
- Obsession with routine: I haven't followed any sort of routine this summer. I just do whatever during the day and go to bed whenever I feel like, waking up from six in the morning to two in the afternoon.
-Restricted interests: I have a lot of interests, ranging from literature to astronomy to video games to music.
What I'm asking is: should I be worried about the fact that I'm not interested in physical displays of affection and connecting with other people like most other people my age? Is something wrong with me? And if so, should I see a psychologist about it?