I'm sorry you took the advice given that way. I think something that 'strangers' are recognizing or think they are is that you seem very sad and fixated on this as the reason. I'm sure it is part of it, don't get me wrong. I just think that you have complicated emotions. Your emotions should be something that you discuss with a therapist to help you understand. but this is your situation and you have a right to feel as you do over it. I think everyone has wanted to help you and hope that you find peace. I really hope that you do. good luck
Thanks for telling me your story. from your age ( I had to wait till 31.5 to find this out and from an aunt ) and what you say it seems that there was more transparency and way less secrecy in your growing up life even if you weren't getting to the bottom of it. At least you KNEW there was some doubt about your identity which to me would help in creating that. Thats all I'm saying about my situation.
whats the point anymore thinking that others will understand when they just like to categorize this in their own little pigeon holes.
I dont "berate" my mother. Like normal humans I sometimes argue and as this has been hidden for years and was told me by her sister I have a right to do that.
Did you ever think that I might have difficulty in saying what I feel and just put down what I think at the time. But you just jumping on the preaching bandwagon doesnt help much.
Thanks and Goodbye.
The 25th is my birthday.
I feel bad for you mdbaby. I hear a great deal of sadness in the way you write. So much more is going on with you I'm afraid. I think that you are struggling so much in general and this is the thing that you blame all of that on. Could that be? I so recommend seeking a therapist to help you clarify and express your emotions.
I wish for peace in your heart.
My resonse to mdbaby79 is also the same as it was the first time around but I would like to address josie_may:
Love isn't DNA, sweetie. We need to realize that nothing sacred happens when an egg and a sperm meet - that's just biology!! RICHIE is Your DAD. He sounds like a wonderful man and HE'S the GrandDaddy to Your Children - we don't NEED the biology for Love and Compassion. We can sometimes waste YEARS trying to undo what can't be undone.
Good Luck
hi my name is Josie I am 21 years old. When I was growing up I used to hear my family talking about me saying that they daon't know who my dad really is. later on I found out that there are three men who it might be. First there is Bryan the man who signed my birth cirt. He is also supposed to be the father of both my brother and sister. No one believes he is really my brothers dad, but everyone is sure he is my sisters. next is Richie. He raised me and was always there for me even now. And fillaly there is Jr. I have never met him. He tried to meet me when I was 16 but I refused and said that he had all those years to try to get to know me and never took the time. But if he is my father then I would have another sister. Growing up I was put into foster care because of my mother. After over a year in care Bryan who had my sister already living with him let me move in. Two weeks later he put me back in care. We went to counsling and he told me that I was a mistake. His side of the family has always told me that there was a DNA test done when I was a baby, or that they are pretty sure there was one. But everythime I bring it up they all say is they are not sure. And when I no longer speak to Bryan and have never had a chance to ask him personally. Then Richie my dad the man that raised me and took care of me. Even to this day he would do anything for me. I asked him a few years ago about the whole situation and he said that he believes he is my dad and either way it didn't matter because I would always be his baby. He told me that if I really wanted to know that he would pay to have a DNA test. I told him no because I am to scared of the results. I love Richie he is my dad. Bryan never cared about me he even told me that he could never love me. He has never met my children or my husband. And his name is not even in their baby books. I have been fighting doing the test for years but now that my children are getting older I am getting more curious. I want them to know who their family is but I am to scared to do anything about it. I am afrais that it will come back that Bryan is my father and he will do to them what he did to me. I don't want my boys to feel the way that I felt. Every time I ask my mom about all of this I get a different mans name. She hates Richie because we all love him so much and she tells me she thinks it is either Bryan or Jr. She claims most of the time that there never was a DNA test.
My opinion hasn't changed since the last time you posted this in mid January. I do think at some point (maybe very soon) your mother is going to say she's put up with this questioning as long as she's going to, and if you can't think of something else to discuss don't bother calling. Were I her, I would have reached that point a long time ago.
BTW, if you're not quite 25, your dad hasn't been dead for 26+ years. I'm not sure what that's about.
I wish you healing, and I think rather than continue to berate your mother, you might focus your energies on finding a therapist who can try to unwind this thought process you're having and figure out what's behind it.