I had asked an earlier question about my chance of infection from STDs from some idiotic unprotected oral I had received from a provider. I also stupidly had one instance of oral sex with another person before it dawned on me that I should get myself checked. In that instance I pulled out and ejaculated on her chest.
What are the probabilities that if I had an STD that it could have been passed on from pre-seminal fluids? Freaking out still.
Basically I'm an idiot, an idiot who's hoping in earnest he receives the gift of surviving the consequences of his idiocy, after which he will have learned the lesson of a lifetime. How I put myself in this situation is crystal clear, why I allowed myself to be in this position without more forethought is beyond me. I'd give anything to not have done this...the mental torture never ends, it's extreme and relentless. I feel like I cannot have my life back until this is behind me.
Please help this idiot out. Thanks...