Reality check

[SAMUELA85]

I have posted oh here in forever as I was too ashamed.  I used commit for a prolonged period of time and then got mouth ulcers from the prolonged use. so I stopped those eventually, and then I thought I could go out and have a few drinks on the wkend and a couple smokes and not smoke the rest of the week. Be an occasional smoker, what a joke right? It just pulls u back in and has u exactly where it wants u. Well, as anyone can imagine this lovely routine sent me into a full relapse for about 4 months. What a recipe for disaster. The guilt was horrible! I was smoking up to and sometimes more than what I was smoking before I quit. Now I have been quit for 2 wks and 1 day via the cold turkey method. One strange thing was that on the 3rd day it was hard for me to believe that if I didn't stop it was going to kill me. I kept questioning if I kept smoking if I was really going to die from this. That taper method was just cruel punishment. I will never recommend commit to anyone. As with the gum, people become addicted to it. So now I believe I'm doing it the right way, for me anyway. Education, no nicotine in any form, no drinking, avoid triggers and situations to protect my quit. It also helps that I not longer live w/a smoker too. I'm ready to do what it takes. I know I am an addict and nicotine is something I will will try my damndest to never consume! Let me be the example of how real this is, learn from my mistakes, just one will kill u. It will never be just one!
On another note, it sucked but it was just too funny.  I was running a little behind in the morning, oh how I hate mornings anyway. So as I was driving what immediately popped into my head "you need a cigarette". This is the amazing part, I just thought for a second and was like how the hell is this going to help me get to work faster? First I need to stop to get smokes and a light, which if I am already late, is only going to make me even later! It was so weird and nice to be able to evaluate the situation and see how it was never going to help at all. Anyway, now that I've got that off my chest, I hope u all have a great Thanksgiving!

[kathyjo]

Please, never feel ashamed Samuela. We are all one cigarette away from a relapse and many of us have been there and done that ; )

Congrats on your 15 days! You sound stronger this time round.

Many vouch for the C/T quit and I'm happy to hear that it's working for you too. We are going to be here for you, no matter what : )
Hope you enjoyed your turkey. It's wonderful how things taste so much better now!

[Jade59]

It seems some of us need to test ourselves to see if we are the exception to the rule, eh?  As we all find out at some point, the rules apply to all :)

Congrats on 2wks, Samuela and have a great smoke free Thanksgiving!