Swollen Lymph Nodes For 3 Weeks Now, Starting To Feel Depression At 15 Years Old

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I'm currently 15 years old, and found out my pulled hip turned out to be a lymph node infection caused by bacteria. I've really been depressed lately because I feel the issue isn't really resolving as fast as I want it to and it's put me way out of shape. I really worried about lymphoma for a while, I've gotten three blood test, two check out by multiple doctors who said they see no evidence of lymphoma and another I'm waiting for results on for checking my bacterial infection. The pain is right in my left hip, which made it hard to walk for two days and gave me a fever of 103 degrees F a few weeks ago. I actually healed up with almost no pain in my hip area and no fever, and when I went back to cross country practice I began to feel the symptoms again, and my fever went back up  to 100. They originally thought it was a viral infection and wouldn't treat it with anti biotics until two days ago they came to the conclusion that it was bacterial. I feel better than the day before, but I just worry what if I do have lymphoma? My bloodwork came back negative, but what if I have a special type that doesn't show up in bloodwork? And what happens if my test results from my CAT scan and bloodwork today come back that I haven't gotten better two days on antibiotics? I also just want to know how long this sort of thing can take to get better on antibiotics. I've already had my blood drawn three times, had two CAT scans just in these past 3 weeks, and have been through tons of doctors visits. I just want to get better and not have to feel anxious every time I have to wait on testing and feel depressed knowing how weak I am right now. I've also been very self conscious because of my physical health. Before all of this I had set a record for our school's mile run, had six pack abs, and could lift 150 pounds, and every since I've become ill I haven't been able to run at my pace in three weeks, haven't lifted in a month, and when I tried while I was feeling better they felt way heavier than before, my six pack is only visible when I flex hard, and my acne problem I had before I got into fitness is starting to come back. I've put in a ton of hard work including giving up all sugar drinks and even diet soda, and spending hours each day running and working out and feel like I'll be starting all over again, I'm already thinking about quitting cross country this year because I haven't been in the condition to do anything with our team, and even when I come back I know I'll need to work very hard to get back to where I used to be. I just want this all to be over, and return to my previous life style. I shoud also mention that I've lost eight pounds since June, which worries me as well, though I didn't have an appetite when I first fell ill and have since returned to normal eating habits. I've just been so anxious, worried, and down about all of this and want to see what somebody else has to say about all of this, thanks so much for the help