As a foster child, don't you have access to any kind of counseling? I appreciate the grief you would feel about not having the child you no longer have, but even at 17, you are awfully young for the burdens of being a parent. I'd talk this over pretty thoroughly with your counselor. You can't patch the rough holes in a life with a baby, you sort of have to patch them first, so the baby doesn't have to be in the impossible position of trying to mend the sad things that have happened to you. Good luck, sweetheart. In your shoes, I would wait until my 20s to get pregnant, and in the meantime try to build a good, strong foundation (job, education, place to live, and not to mention, a solid husband or partner) before trying to bring a child into the world.
wow. have you had any contact with your daughter? If is gods will then it may be