really really scared and frustrated

[ALTY]

I am scared. I was irresponsible.My husband and I were having problems recently. I was feeling so ugly and despondent and I ended up having sex with someone I barely knew and now I am having a problem. I am afraid to go to the doctor, my husband will kill me for sure. I started itching all over my body about one or two weeks after the encounter. I also noticed some dark spots on the inner skin of my vagina, but they are not turning into sores or anything. they were not itching or burning until maybe two days ago. Its now two months since. I have been getting some buttons on my skin, like when a mosquito bite you. none of them got infected or anything like that. I do not have any sores anywhere including my mouth. my eyes are always itching doh and someone told me there was a slight yellow color to the right one. I have tried to get pictures on the various STD's but none of the photos are similar to what I have seen. please help. I am going crazy. Please help soon

[ALTY]

thank you for your comments. I really am scared and so frustrated. unfortunately my husband is not the understanding type, and that's what pushed me away in the first place. He was so uncaring, hurtful and self centered for the longest time that I lost hope in us. I thought we could not make it. But after that encounter, we spoke a bit, and although it turned into a shouting match with threats of separation (he is really pig headed and likes to have things his way only) we have moved on. He is trying really hard and I realized that this is my whole world. I have been praying so hard for nothing to be wrong with me. I decided to rejoin my psychiatric clinic. I was being treated for bipolar depression, but I stopped because he is convinced that nothing is wrong with me, and I am trying to get his attention.But I have accepted that I do need help and I am trying to get it. Thanks again for your words of encouragement.

[ALTY]

thank you for your comments. I really am scared and so frustrated. unfortunately my husband is not the understanding type, and that's what pushed me away in the first place. He was so uncaring, hurtful and self centered for the longest time that I lost hope in us. I thought we could not make it. But after that encounter, we spoke a bit, and although it turned into a shouting match with threats of separation (he is really pig headed and likes to have things his way only) we have moved on. He is trying really hard and I realized that this is my whole world. I have been praying so hard for nothing to be wrong with me. I decided to rejoin my psychiatric clinic. I was being treated for bipolar depression, but I stopped because he is convinced that nothing is wrong with me, and I am trying to get his attention.But I have accepted that I do need help and I am trying to get it. Thanks again for your words of encouragement.

[keephope558]

Hey I would definitely not only get an STD culture test, but a blood test as well.  Unfortunately blood tests are not accurate until  like four or six months after you were with the other guy. Try not to drive youself crazy. Just decide what you can control and what you can't. I have been there and it sux really bad to feel guilty and paranoid.  I think you should talk with your husband, but that's just my opinion. It is possible to overcome this and I hope you do. Good luck.

[duhamanda]

It doesn't really sound like anything.  Maybe you are just feeling guilty and so everything is starting to go to your head. ( I mean that respectfully)  Maybe you could just go to a clinic, other than your regular dr. and get checked out.  It would probably make you feel better, just give you some piece of mind.  I'd be weary to be with your husband again until you get checked, you don't want to start passing something, if it is something, to your husband.  Are things getting better with your husband?  I hope so.  Good luck sweetie, I hope it works out for you.