4/26/09
I am not on birth control, medications or drugs, so why is this happening?
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want to throw things in anger all the time, everything is irritating me. It all started when I got my period two weeks early and it wasn’t normal, it was heavy, my breast grew to 2x their normal size (I went from an small B to a full C) with extreme pain in both breasts, they felt as though dough was rising and the dough was filled with razor blades and apricot pits, I couldn’t move without whining.
My normal period is 3 days-
-1 day prior I cramp bad, the only comfort is a heating pad. I am bitchy and inconsolable. – Day of - I have diarrhea which is the first sign I know I will be bleeding, I can’t sleep, I have extreme anxiety, I feel ugly and worthless.
- Day 2- Cramping but ok, kind of giddy, goofy like.
-3rd day I am fine, no cramps, no pain, I’m nicer and more social then normal, and I’m basically relaxed and happy.
But now, I’m going through emotions that I can not explain. I am fully happy with my life, I’m in love, my family is doing well, yet I want to throw things and I don’t understand why, why am I so mad, so quickly and unexpected. I am not a person to throw, or break things, if I’m angry I usually just walk away and think and usually come to a point where I feel embarrassed that something so small irritated me.
Now I am a complete mad woman, I curse at inanimate objects constantly, I am apologizing for the way I react to everything, I see and hear myself being unreasonable and I can’t stop it.
I’m 28 just a few months from 29 and not exactly sure if I’m going through puberty again. I got my first period at 16 I understand that is a late bloomer but can I go through it again at 28? My breasts are larger and have stayed that way but I’d rather have small breasts and be happy then go through emotional madness.