update from silk2197

[Silk2197]

I want to Tell everyone of you who gave me any advice and prayed for me howim feeling.....I had the bst talk with my LORD JESUS today, I cried and said things that I never realy knew I needed to say! I have gotten off my couch and opened my blinds! Turned on my music...and threw away the ambien, clonazepam and anything else that I will becom dependant on. I CAN DO THIS...I OWE THIS T MY CHILDREN BC I KNOW I HAVE NOT BEEN THE BEST MOM....I FEEL MORE LIKE THEIR CHILD AT TIMES. THAT ENDS TODAY! I PUT ON CLOTHES AND TOOK OVER 500 STEPS AROUND DA HOUSE.....NOT INCLUDING THE STEPS IMMA TAKE TO CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN.  AGAIN, I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DO THIS WITHOUT YOU ALL....GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND I APPRECIATE YOU ALL.

[Silk2197]

I feel what you are saying my body does too so I'm going to listen to you both. I am in tears b/c I never thought I would get through 1 day without a pill and now I'm on day 9!!!!  Thanks for your prayers.....I will continue to pray for you too!!  

[Silk2197]

No I wasn't taking it everyday...had it for months! Don't like the wa it made me feel so I didn't see a reason to keep any of it! And AtTheBeach.....God has spoken to me just now thru you. My friend here in GA was a crack addict who has been clean for years no and he run a CELEBRATE RECOVERY here!  I was thinking about him and those meetings a hr or so ago! I'm geting a lil tired but I think I'm moving more than I have in YEARS! SO, I WILL REST A BIT THEN GET BCK TO CLEANING.

[texaslady68]

Silk, I am so happy to hear this.  The Lord answered your prayers, he sees how you have been struggling and trying.I prayed for you, especially that the vomiting would stop.  I know you have had a really rough go with that. Physically, it is going to get somewhat easier now I hope.  You will still need to stay strong so do not do more than you feel capable of.  

[atthebeach]

You go girl. Good for you. You are breaking free. continue to hope,trust and pray.
Our GOD is able to deliver you,heal you and keep you.
Look for celebrate recovery or overcomers outreaach meetings.
they are faith based recovery support groups that profess the LORD as the higher power. You will find tremendous help,encouragment,love,
support and hope there.
Hugs and continued blessings
Debbie

[vicki595]

Great news!  Stay in touch here...

Were you taking the clonazepam everyday?