Its tough for me to put into words, but I've been clean off oxycodone for almost a year now. But I still feel shame. And llike I'm not good enough. Particularly with my husband. He says all the right things (meaning he respects me and loves me etc) and does all the right things, but I still feel like he's just faking. Like deep down, he has lost his respect or lost the love. I have point blank asked him and he says no. So I'm thinking its me. I just constantly feel I'm being evaluated and judged and never quite measure up. I'm not a good enough wife, or a good enough mom or a good enough whatever. I am trying to do serious reflection to make sure I'm doing all the right things, but I just cant seem to shake this weight of addiction. It's made me feel like less of a person. And it's so crazy, because if anyone else said something like this to me, I'd tell them how strong they are and how great they are doing, but when it's me, I just feel like it doesn't pertain to me. I'm different. Crazy talk...stinkin' thinkin'...all that doesn't seem to help. Any ideas for me?