NEW ADDICTION

[chaddavis333]

This is very embarssing, but I have an addiction question. I have posted on here several times for my addiction to tramadol, which by God's grace I was delivered from.  OVER 130 DAYS CLEAN!!! Somehow, l have let another sin creep into my life, and I am ashamed and embarresed beyond beleif. However, I know that from the past people here would understand and be compassionant. Because of maritial issues, I let the sin of porn creep into my life. As of recently I looked at it several times over the last 2 weeks, daily in fact. After being convicted by God, I decided it was time to stop. Now ever since then, I have felt a lot of the symptoms I did when I first quit the tramadol. Mainly, the anxiety. My question is, is this from being addicted to porn? Did it affect my brain in the same way?  Please any insights will help. Will this go away soon? I am afraid my anti depresent quit..

[GoingToMakeIt]

God delivered you from Tramadol. Ask him to deliver you from porn. It is all too common for addictions to manifest in different ways. We quit one thing to find we do something else.Seek God, get counseling and do not feel condemned over this or any other problem.
    Addiction is a work in progress.
               We are a work in progress.
                           You can and will be set free.

[my_mayberry]

if you are a person of faith, then you have to know that no person is sin free. pornography is something that is extremely difficult for many men to totally ignore. why? because what ever God you believe in made your brain that way. why? to procreate. our brains are absolutely and totally hard-wired for sex. there's nothing we can do about it, and in a modern age where absolutely anything and everything is available to us, it would be foolish to expect to abstain totally. we can try, though. however, it ultimately comes down to what you believe. if you are a Christian or any combination of faith that believes in the biblical God, then you have to believe you are a sinner no matter what you do, so it is important to know yours sins and repent to God. if you are a person who does not believe in God, then it probably doesn't matter as long as your actions hurt no one else.


If you really feel this is a problem, speak with someone about it. if you are a person of faith, then your religious leader will have a LOT of experience in these issues. we all have our flaws. we accept them and do the best we can with them. as an addict, i will ALWAYS be an addict. if this is a sin in the eyes of the biblical God, then it is one i'm terribly grieved by and i'm sorry every time i give in to the tempation. i am NOT sorry because it is a 'sin' but rather because i feel morally wrong for getting high. it is the best that i can do to try to live clean, and if I do the best I can, then there's nothing more I could expect of myself. It is this way in all that we do. this doesn't justify whatever 'sins' we engage in, but it does prove that we are only human and can not be perfect, period.

[Punkinhead75]

Thanks for sharing with us.  These are the times when having someone who knows us is good to talk to.  I find these types of things easier to deal with face to face rather than in a chat room, but that's just me.  I know that when my disease starts kicking in I need to take a good look at myself and try to understand what is really going on.  I would often blame my drinking on other things and situations only to find that the real reason was something inside me.  In your post you say you turned to porn because of marital issues.  The question to ask is "is that the real reason?" or is there something inside that caused that behavior?  

By practicing looking at myself I have a better understanding of the truth as to why I do some of the things I do.  It isn't always easy but I have good people in my life that help me sort it all out.  The nice thing is that I get more comfortable doing it.  The end result has been less anger, less self pity, less anxiety.  The list could go on and on but I think you get the jist of it.

Good job reaching out and sharing.  I'm sure that wasn't easy.  I wish you the best of luck.

God Bless!

[IBKleen]

I think it would be in your best interest to speak with your doctor regarding your anxiety. This is a substance abuse community and since porn is an addiction of another nature, I am not certain you will get much of a response here. Additionally, you claim to have been delivered from watching the porn so anxiety seems to be the lingering symptom. Your doctor could best advise you in that area or you may want to post in the Anxiety Community.

I wish you the best.