my percocet sobriety.

[peaceinknowing]

It hasn't been the easiest thing I've ever had to endure, but it certainly hasn't been the hardest. I've been MIA for the past week or so due to being so busy with work and life, and for that I do apologize. I hope this message finds all my friends here on MH well, and to all the new members here on the forums - keep your head up while traveling through this journey. Always know some of the following things that we've all had to keep in mind at one point in time or another:

1]  You're not alone in this. Just when you think that you've got it bad, someone else comes along sharing their story and makes us realize that sometimes... We got off lucky in our addictions. It could've been worse, but it wasn't. It was what we did to ourselves and the exten in which we did these things. Either way, people here on MH have come from all walks of life to come together for one purspose - saving one another.

2]  Nothing negative can come from getting off of pain killers. Not one thing. I have legitament pain that I had to sadly live through prior to the Percocet man lending me his hand to guide me through what I thought [at first] was relief from the daily pain I suffered. I now stand before you a young woman who is 35 days clean from Percocet, and my pain is still right where it was from the get go, and on some days it's even progressed to worse than what it was. I can manage my days without the pills though. Just know that you'll be able to as well.

3]  Relapse isn't something to kick yourself in the rear over - as some of the new member will continue to read here on the forums, it happens everyday to every type of person.  Instead of focusing on "what you did wrong" you should focus that energy on how you're going to stop it from happening the next time. The members here on MH are always here to help. Some more than others. All here out of the greatness and love within their heart.

4]  Not all doctors are to blame for what you're going through right now. Sure... It was easy for me to sit here and talk about how "ticked off" I was with my PCP when he walked away from me the second I informed him that I felt as though I had an issue with the pain pills; But what I forgot about was who put the pills in my mouth in the long run. The point being, that instead of me focusing my time and energy on being upset with my PCP over everything, I started to face what I used to know as my reality. Reality and sobriety.

5]  Life is what YOU make of it. Not what the pills make of it. Sure... We all feel euphoria on the pills when we take [or have in the past, taken] them. But I want each and every one of you out there on the forums to know that the euphoria I have felt over the past month now has been amazing. The euphoria to be able to state that I am clean. I'm too young for this c r a p anymore. Pills WILL NOT take over my life anymore.

The last and most important thing all the new [and even existing] members here on the forums should know, is that this forum will end up being your saving grace. Not only will MH be your saving grace, but so will the members here. If it wasn't for a select few, I probably would have buried my own grave 35 days ago. What I faced wasn't as bad as a lot of other people here, and for that I will eternally be grateful. However I sympathize with those whom faced tougher days than I did. My WDs lasted less than a week, and I was back at work within four to five days after I flushed the last of my Percocet prescription down my toilet.

You will get triggers and a lot of cravings after your physical WD symptoms are over, but try not to give in to those. I know a lot of people think that it just isn't possible to ignore all the cravings we ALL get from time to time, but I'm living proof that it CAN be done. There are so many AMAZING members here on the forums that are living proof that it can and WILL be done. Always remember to be your own advocate. Raise an eyebrow or two if you must, and never hesitate to ask questions here or with your PCP or specialist from whom you've probably been receiving these pills from. Any and all contacts that were your friends to receive these pills should now become your enemy. Handing you pills for a few dollars here and there throughout the week will only put us all in the ground eventually. Is this what my definition of a friend should be? Absolutely not. My definition of a friend are those who stood beside me physically [and still have been] and those who sat behind a computer screen and assisted me through what I thought were my darkest hours of my VERY young life.

Remember... We're all in this together. I love you ALL very much.

[PfizerFighter]

I had no choice but to quit, I told the doc what I was doing with them. Abusing them, and said for him to not prescribe me anymore no matter what. Sadly, if i were offered some today I would most likely take them. It ***** to be so weak

[PfizerFighter]

Also, how did you find yourself using the percs? Did you get injured?

[PfizerFighter]

Hi there, I would just like to know, if you are at all comfortable with telling me, and it's okay...how were you able to get them? I would try so hard to get them and would only get them here and there. 100 here, 50 there.. you get the idea. Maybe that was a good thing though, actually...come to think of it.