Not to good today

[Sonrissa]

Hi everyone, I'm gonna try to get this out before I crawl back into hibernation! It's the start of day 4 and its the worse so far! Bad night last night, very restless, very little sleep! Been in bathroom all morning! I am taking everything I have for the symptoms! I hope this is the worst that it gets! I'm supposed to go to a church picnic with my roommate! I promised I would go long before I flushed my pills! She doesn't know anything, and she will never forgive me if I back out! I've told her I am sick, but no dice! She says just go for a little while! I pray I feel better soon! I pray this is the worse it will get! I hate myself right now! Thank you all! I love you! Please just let me get through this! Oh I am such a baby! I hurt all over, for the first time in months I feel bad pain in my shoulder! I've always been medicated! Yes I'm taking everything I have! I only want to take what I don't have! I will talk to ya later!!

[akitagurl12]

lol oh Pat.  i dont know why you crack me up so much?!?!  And Sonrissa, I would be frustrated too, your post really wasn't much different then anyone else's.  You were talking about facing your day during w/ds.  Maybe i just don't understand this forum either.  I do believe more of the same people are coming over to this side more then before though.  And that is partly because you are bringing it to everyone's attention.  So thank u:)  

[Pat1956100]

I know.  My heading for my cat post was "I don't want to live anymore".  I was embarrassed after I posted that but it just came out.  I understand.  We are just very emotional right now.

[Sonrissa]

I'm not gonna kill myself! I don't want the cops showing up at my door! I'm just super frustrated with this whole thing!

[Sonrissa]

I guess you are right, I didn't see your cat post get moved?? I am to weak to fight this anymore! There just has to be another place for help!

[Pat1956100]

I think maybe it's because your issue was going to a picnic.  That's all I can think of.  Not that you were withdrawing or a withdrawing issue but more how could you make it to the picnic.

[minn66]

Wow, I don't understand why it got moved either...

I'm glad you're back home and didn't throw up. I hope you get some rest, maybe a relaxing soak and then some comfy clothes.

Hugs,
Minn

[Sonrissa]

Can someone please explain why this is being done to me? My posts are the same as everyone else's, yet mine continue to be banished! We are all in various stages of withdrawals and everyone is posting? This is getting ridiculous! It is discrimination! I need support to get through this! It won't happen on the Social page! Is it gonna take me killing myself? That is not a threat! I need to understand why my posts are being banished!! What magic words am I supposed to be using so that my posts do NOT get moved! My posts are the same as other people's! This is making me so much worse!  Thanks a lot!

[Sonrissa]

I'm back, God bless my roommate she saw that I am green and offered to take me home! We were there less than an hour! I ate 3 bites of a hamburger & nearly there up! I feel so horrible! Trying to fight so hard! I anyone here? I need some support! Damn!! My post has been moved to Social again!! Really people! Are your trying to Effff with me today??

[NowOrNever43]

Wishin you luck at the picnic! Let us know how it goes!

[Pat1956100]

We will be here.  I don't have a picnic invitation that I could say NO to,
but kinda wish I did.  Maybe it will be good for you and I for one, am very proud of you for going.
Let us know when you are home.

[Sonrissa]

I love you just the way you are! No bra or underwear & elastics and all! Wish I could get a blackmail picture of that! Oh crap, I'm off to shower & go to stupid picnic! Please be around when I get back! I hope I don't die!

[Dixiechick72]

That is too funny pat!!! I can only imagine. I'm sure though at that moment u didn't really care... U just needed ur kitty safe. But bringing the laughter here always helps!!! And yes the walmart thing. That is funny stuff LOL. Glad to see ur hanging in there.
Sonrissa. Hang in there girly ok!!!! You'll get through this day of hell. Don't let the downfalls of others get to u. U are doing great and I'm very proud of u!!!!

[Pat1956100]

Or you can picture me in a house dress with rips in it.  3 elastics in my hair, bare feet and a flashlight searching the neighbourhood for my cat.  Stopping traffic.  Oh and I didn't have a bra or underwear on. hahahaha.  The good part is nobody would know it was me.  I hope......................... Traffic was slowing down looking at me.  Especially when I stopped it to rescue her.

[Pat1956100]

haha, at least my cat is safe today.  You don't have to deal with that.
If you want some laughs go to Walmart.  Oh, now that was just nasty of me.

[Sonrissa]

Oh Pat, LOL LOL, my first laugh of the day! Geeze I forgot this is a drug addiction board! Thanks honey!

[Sonrissa]

Kme, honey you need to change your freaking attitude! I know you are struggling like I am today, but fight through it! It's almost over! I have to get up & go to a stupid picnic today and believe me it is the absolute last thing I want to do! But I made a promise and a promise I will keep! Hang tough, please!

[Pat1956100]

Well it is a drug addiction board.  It's not always going to be a happy place.  That's why we come here.  We are struggling.  If it was easy we wouldn't need to be here.
Hang in there.

[kme17]

I hope we all get back on track with positive attitudes soon. I am praying for something great to happen to me. Like win the lotto for billions!. That would get me endorphines going... Hell who m i kidding i would just blow it on drugs.

[Pat1956100]

It's cause I am here today lol.  I am depressing.  

[Sonrissa]

What the heck is going on here today? Why is everyone struggling so hard? Every post I read is some struggling or has relapsed! Ugh! Yesterday was so quiet and most everyone gone doing normal things! Today it is the opposite! I'm sad and depressed! This is the worst I've ever felt! I have to get through! I don't have a choice! Wish I could do something to help everyone!

[Dixiechick72]

Oh sweetie. It will be ok. I'm an emotional mess every movie I'm crying at now when I use to laugh at my Hubby for crying so easy!! U need ur time right now. I tried to make myself get up and walk. But my body was tired so I rested. Let yourself rest. Ur healing ok!!! U deserve a break today!!! Rest rest rest eat and drink!!!

[minn66]

Oh hun, I so understand! I bawled my eyes out yesterday over hearing a song that reminds me of my son. Hang in there, it will get better. I am a little anxious today but my emotions aren't as out of whack. Haven't cried once today (yet ;)).

Try to relax today. Stay home, go outside into the sunshine for a few minutes, but don't over exert yourself.

Hugs,
Minn

[Pat1956100]

When it gets to a point where you think you can't take it any more, it's almost over.  Hang in there and it will pass soon.  It's tough and so are you.
You are the most important thing right now and so is not taking a pill.  It's just so not worth it.  I am paying for my relapse.  Don't go to the picnic.  This is about you and the rest of your life.  Not a picnic.  
xo

[Sonrissa]

Oh God, I'm crying so hard right now! I can't control it! I'm watching the Indy 500 and thinking of my Dad, who died 10 years ago!! He favorite thing in the whole world was this sport! Favorite race was the Indy 500! He used to go to it every time he could! Damn these stupid emotions! I can't take this, I just can't!