HI. I can't say that I have personally dealt with the circumstances that you are in. BUT I can say that I empathize with your situation. I suffered bi-polar (depression) disorder for many years and what you are describing are the very symptoms that I possessed. I am by no means doctor and cannot diagnose you, however I think that you should ask your GP to be referred to a professional for further assessment. Your partner may not understand, but all you have to tell him is that you want to be with him, and you want to make it work and you are trying to fix your problems, whatever they may be. Addiction takes form in many ways, and is often a symptom of depression. Whether it be a Psycological or Physical addiction, in the end it is still an addiction that needs to be taken control of. seek outside help is my advice, even if all you can do, is learn about your affliction.
i can only suggest going to 12step meetings, i have a forum at medhelp that post informations about several 12step programs
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i also work with addicts who are duel diagnosed, i am willing to anwser any specific questions you may have
when dealing with a list of issues, the only thing you can do it take them one at a time
start with whatever is making your life the most unmanageable then move onto another issue once the first has been attended too
most people i know, self included start with whatever chemical dependency they may have, get the chemical out first, then move onto other needs
its a process but it does work
5yrs ago i was a opiate addict, with a whole lot of problems, today i enjoy daily life without the hopeless living problems that used to rule my life
I'm very sorry to read of what you are suffering with.. addiction comes in many forms. My suggestion would be for you to go to therapy and start working on your compulsive thinking and behaviors.. Therapy has had a great impact on my life and has helped me to figure out a lot of things.. If your Dr. is not taking you seriously then find another. neglecting your daughter and your hubby wanting to leave because you obsess is a very real problem.. I wish you well.. lesa