Prescription fraud

[selfishperson01]

Right at this moment...I am so so scared. My life is completely over and I don't know what to do. I have been phoning in fake scripts to a pharmacy for months now. I called the script in on Fri and went to pick it up on Sat. the lady there said she didn't see one for me and there wasn't one on hold. So.....rather than taking a lesson learned..I called it in again on Mon. went to pick it up and the pharm said he was waiting on a phone call back from the doc. what makes this even worse is my mother works for the doctor. I'm a terrible daughter..My mom didn't work mon or tues and she goes to work on wed(tomorrow) does the doctor have to report this to the police? Now, I know the doctor knows cause I tried to call the pharmacy back in desperate attempt to stop all this for catching up with me and vowing to myself and God to never do this again. What should I do ....call the doctor and confess...what if they fire my mom who is the best woman in the world..I can't believe this drug has a hold of me like this to do such terrible selfish things. I lay in bed every night and regret so much and hate myself for this. I use to be the happiest person in the world. God has blessed me so much and yet I go and screw things up. Any advice please please?

[buggie1978]

Hello! First off I want to let you know that your life is far from over,it is just beginning...again. You need to realize (as hard as it may be right now) that very bad things happen to very good people...and our luck when doing very bad things eventually runs out and we are left in shambles...I know exactly how you feel....I have been there,in your shoes!
I got arrested a little over a month ago for forging Rx's. My husband and family had NO idea about my addiction and worst part is when I went to pick up the RX I had my 3 year old with me at the pharmacy! My mind was not "me" thinking,now "clean" i can truthfully say that and mean it. There is sooo... much bad that we do to get our drug,beacuse in fact,it takes over our mind and soul and we are sick people. I am a wonderful ,smart person who never ,ever abused drugs of any sort. A year ago I had to get 2 wisdom teeth pulled and got a RX for Vicodin and took that 1st pill and was like "super-mom","super-wife",etc...and that was it,I was hooked. From there I went to a few different Dr's who would give me the pills,then I had this "wondeful" idea of forging the Rx and it worked a few times until my time ran out and I got busted. I went to pick up the RX and the pharmisist said that it wasnt ready yet to come right back in 15 minutes (enough time for her to call the police and have them get there)...so,I waited and walked up got the Rx and paid,turned around to leave and 2 police officers were waiting right behind me,handcuffed me (in front of my 3 yr old) and had to call my husband to come get our son...took me to jail,etc.....NOT A FUN DAY! BUT,I can honestly say that it was def. my "rock bottom" and saying it was the worst day of my entire life is an understatement.....but it was the best thing that could have happened to me,it was the only way I was going to realize I needed help and I needed to stop! I had to stay in jail for 1 1/2 days and was let out on bond.....my husband was beside himself...he had NO IDEA about my addiction. I have never even had a speeding ticket so for me getting arrested and put in jail was the biggest wake up call for me!!!! We all learn from our mistakes and i know I sure did! The very,very first thing I did when I got out of jail was find a NA meeting in my area....and went! It has been my lifesaver...it has helped me so much! The first 2 weeks of withdraws were rough,but do-able. I can tell you that once you are through the first 2 weeks you will be amazed at how different the world looks and how much you have been missing out on while in your addiction...for example I went into Wal-Mart about a week into my withdraw and it was if I had never,ever been there ( even though I was there almost every other day during active addiction!) ...everything looked so bright and so different ,like I noticed things I had never noticed before! Strange,but true! And just overall,I feel 100 times better and am loving my "new" life! God has a reason for everything he puts us through,and I know my getting caught was a blessing ,it was the only way out for me...there was no going back at that point! Please know,I am here for you if you need to talk....I know exactly what you are going through...reading your post brought tears to my eyes,knowing I was exactly where you are (different story,but same fear!)...and I know how you are feeling!
It is up to you on telling your mother,do what you feel is right! I think it would be best for her to know before going into work tomorrow and having it told to her second-hand...but that is up to you to decide. Talking to the Dr may not be a bad idea...maybe sitting down with your mother and him together and explaining your sorrow and how this addiction has taken over your life and that you want to get help. But,I def. would talk to your mother first before meeting with the Dr and her,she deserves to know the truth from you. I really think as upset as she may be,she will understand and want to get you help. My family had no idea,so when my husband called them all when I was in jail it killed me,but every single one of them have been 100% supportive and call me everyday to check on me and make sure I am having a good day! If you need anything,please do not hesitate to write me,I can even give you my number if you would want to talk. I am here for you and you will make it though this! May god bless you!!!!

[kiki003]

I am so, so sorry for you.  I am feeling just like you are now, that my life is over.  I didn't phone in fake prescriptions...I went right to the doctor and lied and lied.  I was terrified that it would take something of this magnitude to snap me out of this.  But I want you to know how much reading what you said has helped me decide that I MUST not be a defeatist.  I could easily be in your shoes.  I have done bad things to get my drugs, too, and then swore I would never do it again.  I also had a mother who was wonderful...my best friend.  She lost her battle to cancer 5 years ago.  I am with you in spirit and feeling your pain more than you can ever imagine.  Out of all bad comes some good.........this may well save your life.  And quite honestly, it might end up saving mine..so strange to say, I know.  But your panic is clear and has made me decide that I will not give up or call myself hopeless again.  Tomorrow will be a new day....in your name I will remember how lucky I will be to get out of this mess before you are reading my panic.  So thank you so much for sharing.  I will be looking out for you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.    

[lookingforhealth]

You should speak to your husband and maybe you can both go to your mother.  I REALLY think you should speak to her first.  

[Cris718]

Honey.....honey.....I know you don't want to do this.....went through a little something like your situation....except I was calling in refill's on my husband's and picking them up...until I GOT BUSTED!  Believe me.....it's better to come clean......really.

I ended up confessing to my doctor and I got help.......I really do believe that God is using this to get you off of them.

I prayed everytime I took a pill.....please forgive me....I'm doing it again.  I kept trying to make deals with God, ok,..this one more time and I'll quit...I promise....that day never came until I got busted.  I know it sounds crazy, but God punishes though he loves.  Your his daughter, he doesn't want to see you like this......call out on his mercy and forgiveness and ask for mercy from those you love and an understanding heart.

I know how you feel.....people pleaser here also.  I have found over the past 2 weeks, that people are much more understanding than we give them credit for.

Your human.....you're not a bad person, or selfish, your sick.  You need to get some help.  As you can see there are a whole lot of good people on this forum.  Go talk to your mom, make an appt with doctor, get some help........before something worse happens.  

Please keep us up to date......your not rambling....you've entered a group who can sympathise with your situation....most all of us here have the addict t-shirt....been there...done that.

Praying for you......

Cris~

[selfishperson01]

Thank you for the advice. I'm still procrastinating.......waiting on the world to come to an end....I guess.......feels like it's already here. Husband will be home shortly. I hope this is something my daughter will never find out (3yrs old) unless I tell her. Isn't it a terrible feeling to worry about what others think..i've based a large part of my life on pleasing others...although the contrary....and I've never liked for my parents or anyone to be disappointed.  I hope one day I can  become an advocate like some of you and help those who are on "rock bottom."  It's hard to believe there's so many of us. What a sad world...where most of this probably started with a dr giving us meds for legitimate pain...yet we abused or some got hooked cause they couldn't deal with the pain. Sorrry to ramble....still procrastinating and dreading THISSSSSSSSSSS. This is so much worse than ever bringing home an F on a test.

[vicki595]

Sweetie~  Talk to your Mom first....Think about this...Get your Dad and talk to him,then go talk to your Mom.