Prescription fraud

[selfishperson01]

Right at this moment...I am so so scared. My life is completely over and I don't know what to do. I have been phoning in fake scripts to a pharmacy for months now. I called the script in on Fri and went to pick it up on Sat. the lady there said she didn't see one for me and there wasn't one on hold. So.....rather than taking a lesson learned..I called it in again on Mon. went to pick it up and the pharm said he was waiting on a phone call back from the doc. what makes this even worse is my mother works for the doctor. I'm a terrible daughter..My mom didn't work mon or tues and she goes to work on wed(tomorrow) does the doctor have to report this to the police? Now, I know the doctor knows cause I tried to call the pharmacy back in desperate attempt to stop all this for catching up with me and vowing to myself and God to never do this again. What should I do ....call the doctor and confess...what if they fire my mom who is the best woman in the world..I can't believe this drug has a hold of me like this to do such terrible selfish things. I lay in bed every night and regret so much and hate myself for this. I use to be the happiest person in the world. God has blessed me so much and yet I go and screw things up. Any advice please please?

[lookingforhealth]

I am sooooo sorry for you.  I have been doing the same thing for a while and I know your feelings.  It's like you don't want to do it but you just do.  I really think coming clean would be the best just tell your mom before she goes to work and maybe you can both speak to the doctor together.  Tell them you have an addiction.  And just pray that they understand.  

I don't think he has to tell the police but he has a chance of getting in trouble also.  Just admit to what you have done.  Please keep me posted!!

I will say a prayer for you.  Even though we do bad things it doesn't mean we are bad people!!!

[jollyman069]

For one thing, your life isn't over..i don't think the dr will fire your mom, sje didnt do anything wrong....this is your wake up call...get clean get off the pills, face what you have done and get on with your new life...things may seem at there worst, and from some stuff you wrote sounds like you have GOD in your life,,,cry out to JESUS..no matter what we have done one sin is no worst then the other to HIM...ask for forgiveness and move on...read my journel how I messed my life up and GOD reeled me bak home..God Bless..if I can be of any help just message me...brian

[shiningstar500]

This is horrible and the drugs do have that effect on so many people. There are others on here that have posted about stealing and coping prescriptions. Does your mother know you have been doing this?

[avisg]

As scary as this is you are going to have to sit down with your mom today and tell her .She needs to know before she goes to work .The I would suggest she speak to a lawyer if possible today before she goes back to work .

  Now for you u have to get into a program whether it aa/na meetings or rehab you have to get help for yourself .Your mom may want to look into Alon meetings as well .

You get threw this you mom wont love you any less but you have to tell her
avis

[ANewLife4Me]

I agree with avis - you have to sit down and tell your Mother today, before she goes into work tomorrow.
What are you taking, and how many each day?  Your life is not completely over, in fact this may help get your life back believe it or not.  It will be a long hard process but worth it in the end. You are not alone, god blessed each and every one of us with blessing and we screwed them up, but he does forgive.  

[mikchez]

There is good Advice here .... Tell your mother, every one clam up go see a lawyer
Don't confess to any one else.Don't talk to police or pharmacy every communication is going to be recorded, get into rehab or detox get responsible for your recovery. Pray to god that this blows over but don't use. Don't rat your self out be quiet....I'm not a lawyer but Ive been in messes and I talked to much out of fear and ended up in big trouble because of my big mouth.. ... Good Luck  

[selfishperson01]

Thank you all for you immediate response...This couldn't have came at a worst time. My family is in WWIII over my grandmother's estate. My dad is executor and they have been going through her belongings....family members are all mad cause they didn't inherit what they wanted..etc. My mom is also a cancer survivor as of a year ago. They found a spot on her lung at the first of July had a biopsy done it was benign. I thought God was punishing me through her for doing such terrible things. She doesn't need anymore stress. Do you all think there is a possible way to avoid telling her today.....maybe call the dr?...I know I should have thought about the stress and hurt it would have caused her BEFORE I did this. She just can't handle anymore stress today. I know you all are gonna sayTELL HER....guess, I just want to save her from worrying......Yes, I know I should have thought about it before I did it.
I was/am using hydrocodone about 100-120 mg a day. I have came off these before but, had pain..and got hooked again....This life is old and I do want a new beginning..just wish I could keep my mother who adores me and is the best lady in the world from being disappointed.

[pattifan]

Just as the others have said before me, you need to sit down with your Mum and tell her all about this. She's going to find out anyway and it'll be much worse if she finds out before you tell her. Which drug are you using?

I really don't think your Mum will get into any trouble with her employer as she hasn't been involved at all.

Drugs make you do strange things, often beyond your control. You've made a mistake, as has nearly everyone on the list. It's not unforgiveable, your life isn't over and you aren't a selfish person. I know it's really difficult not to think badly of yourself just now, but you are as gifted and valuable as anyone else on the planet. You will get through this and the list members will support you.

[LMB01]

WOW, self, you told my EXACT story. I was busted for RX fraud, arrested, and MY mom was the Drs BOSS. Have you been in trouble with the law before? I had never been in trouble, was always the "good child" and no knew the slightest bit of my addiction. Until one day the police showed up at the door. BUSTED I thought, then the BIGGEST sigh of relief. The game was over and I was able to get the help I needed. And guess what?? NOTHING is on my record. I did as the courst said, I went to detox, and completed a out patient program. My older sibilings did however hire my a criminal lawyer. If you want to talk message me and I will send you my phone number. I know EXACTLY what you are going through. Pleae know in your heart that brighter days are ahead. Laura

[tryntogetwell]

She will be more hurt if you let her walk into work tomarrow and find out. Thats not what you want to hear but you should do it. She is going to find out anyways and would be best coing from you. Sounds like the best time to quit the pills. You have loads of suport here. And yes talk to a lawyer, they know what to do. Its gonna be ok eventually.

[LeaAnn807]

You have to tell your mom, and it probably wouldn't hurt to call the doctor and come clean and apologize and ask for some help getting into detox.  He may have protected you with the pharmacist since he knows your mom, but you KNOW he will tell her.  The gig is up.  It's time to come clean, take responsibility and get better!!!  Don't let your mom walk in there and be told by the doctor, ok?  She deserves to hear this from you.

You can do it!

[pattifan]

We all understand that you don't want to cause your mother any more upset, but it will be much worse tomorrow when she finds out from someone else.

It took courage to come on the list, accept your problem and tell us about it. I think you have courage to tell her to. It will be easier on you both.

[selfishperson01]

Amazing all the support on her...can't say I feel better..yet, I feel a little "safer" now. It's so hard to be optimistic about all this....I do know...I will get clean, oh how I dread telling my mother..I do agree, my mom finding out about this from someone else would be worse than hearing it from me. Does the doctor have to contact the police?

[tryntogetwell]

Thats where you need consult from the lawyer

[ANewLife4Me]

Unfortunately we don't think about anybody but ourselves in active addiction.  There's no sense in beating yourself up over and over about what you did because it's done now.  
There's no way I would talk to anybody but your Mother first.  I would think she'd much rather hear it from you than walk into work tomorrow to find all this out.....
I know that's probably not what you want to hear, but from what you describe your Mother sounds like a wonderful lady.  Yes, she will probably be disappointed, but it sounds like she will also be a wonderful support for you to change your life around as well and you are lucky to have her.

[selfishperson01]

Do you think I should contact the dr.? He has been my physician for 8 to 9 yrs now. Do you think this would be better to tell her I contacted the dr and have a solution to this before she walks into work blind sided and with the dr feeling like he has to be the one to tell her?

[LeaAnn807]

No, he doesn't have to call the police.  But the pharmacist may.  You NEED to talk to an attorney, the doctor and your mom.....PRONTO!

[pattifan]

No! We really do understand that you're scared, but your Mum really does need to know first. I suspect she will know the doctor far better than you do, and it will give you both time to consider how best to deal with this if you tell her now.

You can't know what your doctors reaction will be, but I bet it will be much better, if he knows you've been straight with your Mum, and I'm also sure that your Mum would want to be the first to know, despite the other stresses on your family.

It does take guts and it will be very upsetting for you both, but you need to tell her as soon as you can. We're all behind you.

[jstntime]

Hi there,

Wow, I sure feel for you.  I'm with the other posters that say DON'T call the Doctor.

You DO need to tell your mom though.  She knows this Doctor much better than you and may better know how he reacts to such news.  She will know much better than us about whether and how to contact him.

Do not talk to HIM until you have at least spoken to your mom.  
Goodluck, I hope this all works out and becomes a great turnaround story.

bob

[laurel453]

yes, i agree with telling your mother first of all.

besides, she may know about how the doctor has handled cases like yours, i'm sure you are not the first one and your mother will know what action is better to take.

Good luck and all the best !!!!! :)

[selfishperson01]

Thanks again for all the support. I don't guess  I will call the dr. I really do appreciate the advice and plan on using it. Wish I could afford a lawyer. Thank you all please pray for me...as I will pray for myself...I believe this is God trying to help..How long can someone live a life like this. Love to you all for taking your time to help

[vicki595]

Sweetie~  Talk to your Mom first....Think about this...Get your Dad and talk to him,then go talk to your Mom.

[selfishperson01]

Thank you for the advice. I'm still procrastinating.......waiting on the world to come to an end....I guess.......feels like it's already here. Husband will be home shortly. I hope this is something my daughter will never find out (3yrs old) unless I tell her. Isn't it a terrible feeling to worry about what others think..i've based a large part of my life on pleasing others...although the contrary....and I've never liked for my parents or anyone to be disappointed.  I hope one day I can  become an advocate like some of you and help those who are on "rock bottom."  It's hard to believe there's so many of us. What a sad world...where most of this probably started with a dr giving us meds for legitimate pain...yet we abused or some got hooked cause they couldn't deal with the pain. Sorrry to ramble....still procrastinating and dreading THISSSSSSSSSSS. This is so much worse than ever bringing home an F on a test.

[Cris718]

Honey.....honey.....I know you don't want to do this.....went through a little something like your situation....except I was calling in refill's on my husband's and picking them up...until I GOT BUSTED!  Believe me.....it's better to come clean......really.

I ended up confessing to my doctor and I got help.......I really do believe that God is using this to get you off of them.

I prayed everytime I took a pill.....please forgive me....I'm doing it again.  I kept trying to make deals with God, ok,..this one more time and I'll quit...I promise....that day never came until I got busted.  I know it sounds crazy, but God punishes though he loves.  Your his daughter, he doesn't want to see you like this......call out on his mercy and forgiveness and ask for mercy from those you love and an understanding heart.

I know how you feel.....people pleaser here also.  I have found over the past 2 weeks, that people are much more understanding than we give them credit for.

Your human.....you're not a bad person, or selfish, your sick.  You need to get some help.  As you can see there are a whole lot of good people on this forum.  Go talk to your mom, make an appt with doctor, get some help........before something worse happens.  

Please keep us up to date......your not rambling....you've entered a group who can sympathise with your situation....most all of us here have the addict t-shirt....been there...done that.

Praying for you......

Cris~