WOW

[howlingshadow]

What a day to find out your fiance has been cheating on, I feel like crap trying to work and all hell is breaking lose all around me, happy monday!!!!!!!!!!!!

[howlingshadow]

Ahww, thanks. I will stay strong, I never want to go through that nightmare one way or the other again. WOW, its amazing what we do not see in that fog.

[ANewLife4Me]

Hi,
Sorry to hear about another cheatin' fiance.  I'm not in the best frame of mind when it comes to men so I'll refrain from using any pig comments at this time...
Anyway, try turning this around and using it to your advantage - let it fuel you to stay strong and away from drugs.  Don't let it break you, let it make you stronger.  I read in one of your posts above all the things you did for HIM - helped get license back, etc.  What did he do for you?  Anything good?  This right here could be a good thing although it may not seem like it now.  Just stay strong!  And vent away.....

[howlingshadow]

Just seems its been one thing after another, sometimes I wish I was numb but then I think about all the trouble my brother had, ending up dying, and all the trouble I am going through now and trying to be strong for my family, my son and work, its hard sometimes.

[howlingshadow]

Thank you everyone, that is so sweet, its been a hard day, took everything I had not to hand his leather jacket to a homeless guy across the street. I mean no one knows the whole story of course but I have put myself all out trying to get his life straightened out, all his tickets taken care of and get his commercial license back. Its been hard, then he trash talks about me to the world. I dont know but I think its to late to repair all this damage. I didnt even use to get high, I was just doing the dumb thing and thinking ok doc thanks, have a nice day, you WHAT want to poisen me duhhhhhhhhhhhh ok. lol, sorry just venting.

[bettermomma]

O hunny, I feel your pain... and that really suck that this has happened in general, not only today... or during you time of trial... my heart breaks for you sweetheart... just keep telling yourself, "I am doing this for me! No one and I mean no one can take that from me!" I know from experience that people change as due our feelings for people ... but if he can love you screwed up all the time, and think that's normal, maybe hr needs just as much help. I had to sit and talk to my hubby lastnight, about not feeling like he loves me sober... then again he simply explained that he has to learn how to love me this way. 29 days and counting, we have a family, and if love takes patients, then I'm gorging myself with it... not saying that you should be like me, but you gotta choose what is good for you... and if that's not him... then move on baby, he'll eventually miss the beautiful woman that you are becoming.


My love and support are with you dear... like I said, my heart breaks for you!
Momma

[bama88]

I meant rooten say release...

[bama88]

Im so sorry to hear about your hearbreak...keep your gaird up extra strong...don't let this test be a reason to use...you have came to far...were all here for you..I've had marital problems too!! its hard to deal with...post how you feel...get out all the negative and hurt you feel...relapses it instead of turning inward

[dominosarah]

Just make sure to keep your eye on the prize and that is you.

[howlingshadow]

believe me I know about taxes, that is what I do, lol, I was on day one and had to go to work and DO taxes, LOL, that can be very stressful

[kyle505]

Sorry to hear that. Unfortunately, life goes on, good or bad. I was in to day 3 of my detox and found a tax error that could have landed me in court. Not quite what you're going through, but I couldn't believe the timing. Keep posting; we'll support you and help however we can.